Not Just Perfect

Life Sucks

*Wednesday morning*

I woke up to see that I was in Gilinsky's bed. My eyes widened as I let out a loud screech. Almost seconds after my scream echoed, Jack's arms were around me. I pushed him off of me. "Stop!" I screamed. "Shhhh" Jack whispered in my ear, trying to calm me. "WHAT THE HELL GET OFF OF ME!" I screamed even louder than before. I was terrified. Did he rape me!? Why am I in his bed!? Why am I in a bra and underwear!? Why is he wrapping his arms around me!? What the hell is going on!? Where's Cameron!? "Alex you need to calm down." He said slowly. "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? YOU CAN JUST SHUT YOU PRETTY LITTLE MOUTH!" I bellowed. His eyes widened as he got up. "ALEX I WAS HELPING YOU WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SCREAMING AT ME!?" He pointed at me. "SENSE WHEN IS RAPING, HELPING??" His jaw dropped at my words.

"Alex, I picked you up from a party yesterday because you were a drunk mess. I brought you home and let you sleep in my bed and I slept downstairs, on the couch. I don't know why your in a bra in underwear... Probably because sleeping in a tight lace dress and heels isn't the most comfortable thing in the world..." He explained. I've never been so embarrassed. "Oh my god... Jack I- " I paused. "I need to go home." He gave me a sympathetic look. "Thanks for the.... Help." I grabbed his hoodie off the floor and slipped it on, along with some of his sweat pants. "I'll give these back tomorrow." I quickly stated as I ran down the stairs and out the door.
I walked back to my house, with my embarrassment following me.

I shook my head as I opened my door. My mom was waiting right there on the stairs for me. I paused as she gave me a grin. "Now why don't you tell me where you were Alex." She hummed. All I had on were sweat pants and a hoodie, but the smeared make up and louboutins in my hand probably didn't help. I set down the heels and dress and began to explain.... Until tears burned my skin. My mom gave me a sympathetic look as the tears came down harder. She held me as I cried and cried. I couldn't stop. All the memories of last night kept flashing in my head.

****

"Goody goody gone wild! Goody goody gone wild!" The girls cheered as I vomited in the sink.

"Mmmm" cam moaned as he kissed the hot brunette.

"Kiss me." I commended as Kalin sat in silence.

****

My mom waited for me to explain, but instead I just ran to my room, unable to speak. "WHY!?" I screamed. "WHY!?" I repeated. I kept crying until my phone went off. I checked to see who it was. Seeing that it was cameron I threw it across the room. Five minutes later, it was buzzing constantly. I might as well read them if he's not ganna stop bothering me.

Text messages from Cameron:

Where the hell were you!?

Are you okay!?

I couldn't find you at the party last night!!!

Did somebody take you home?

Please tell me your okay...

ALEX

PLEASE

Please.....

You usually respond quickly!

OMG PLEASE ALEX

Bkakwoiwucyduwoie

Just let me know your okay

You can even just send a letter or a word.

Alex.....

Why did he even care...? I texted one word. Just to let him know I'm okay. "Dick." I chuckled to myself. Wow I'm childish. *phone buzzes* I look to see what he had to say. "Lol..." I rolled my eyes as I got an other text. "Just so glad your okay :)" I held my self back from an other eye roll. "Yeah... Whatever fuckboy" I texted back. I dropped my phone on my bed, and headed to my computer to watch a movie. The phone began to ring with a call. "Can I not get one moment of peace!?" I complained, grabbing the phone.

**answers the phone**

Cameron- Hey babe it's Cam.

Alex- um yeah... I know

Cameron- are you sure...

Alex- obviously I know it's you Cam. Who else's contact in my phone would be "My Prince Charming👦👑"

Cameron- *chuckles* awe that's adorable!

Alex- yeah... All right bye--

Cameron- wait Alex! Why are you trying to end our conversations so quickly and why did you call me a.... fuckboy?

Alex- I gatta go. Just go make out with an other hot skank.

Cameron- what the hell are you--

*Alex ends call*

I'm so fed up with him right now it's not even funny. I hate it when boys try to act like they don't know anything. Live up to your fucking actions. What the hell has happened to him. He's so nice one second and the next I just... I can't do it. Ya know? *phone buzzes*
This is the last text I'm answering.

Cameron- Alex...

Ugh why can't he finish his-- *phone buzzes*

Cameron-I have cancer.

My heart had just fell into my stomach. My head was aching and my hands began to sweat. This has to be a joke. Why would he tell me this now!? Why now!? Did he just find out!? Is he just trying to get my attention!? I called him immediately, hoping this was a joke.

**cameron answers**

Cameron- Alex I should have told you soon--

Alex- what the hell....? Are you trying to tear a part my life. I love you more than I've ever loved anything and, a-and I wanted to grow old with you Cameron.
How could this happen? To you...? To us..? Why us? Why do we have to be insanely in love? And some disease just wants to come and rip us a part and, and--

Cameron- it's not going to rip us a part. I will always love you Alex. I don't know what I did, but I'm sorry that it's made you this upset. I just needed to tell you, even if this is the worst time possible... Because your so upset with me, but you needed to no sooner or later. It runs in my family Alex... It was bound to happen.

Alex- your ganna....

Cameron- baby everythings ganna be oka--

Alex- your ganna die

Cameron- Alex...

Alex- YOU CANT DIE CAMERON!

Cameron- I have to go Alex. I wanna give you some time to think about this. Okay?

Alex- *takes a deep breath and hangs up the phone*

I never knew how much life sucked, until now.