Girl Crush

Chapter 9

When Harry woke up Jane was gone. He got up, put a towel round his waist and walked through the house calling her name but he couldn't find her. When he got to the kitchen he saw a note:

Had to go, I'm sorry
Jane
x

"What happened? She said she could stay the entire day and now she's gone." It didn't feel right for Harry, something was up and he had to know what it was. He decided to call her but she didn't pick up. He tried again and again but no answer. He sent her a text message.

Sweet Jane, where are you?
Thought we could spend the entire day together.
Did something happen? Please call or text me back, I'm worried.
xxx H.

Harry went to shower, leaving his phone on the kitchen counter. He couldn't get Jane out of his head, "Why would she leave without waking me up? It's not like her to do this. I'm almost certain something is wrong," he thought as he got out of the shower. He dried himself and walked to his closet and put some clothes on.
When he got back downstairs he looked at his phone and smiled when he saw Jane had sent a text back.

I just need some time.
x

Harry frowned when he read it because it's the shortest messages he has ever received from Jane. Now he is sure something is wrong and he needed to know what was going on.
He walked to the door put on his shoes, grabbed his car keys and walked out the door. He jumped in his car and drove to Jane's apartment. There were so many questions in his head, he was worried and scared that he might lose Jane. He didn't want to lose her.

He arrived at Jane's apartment and somebody just walked out so Harry could walk in the building straight to her house. He knocked on the door but she didn't open it. He knocked again.
"Jane, please open the door. I know you are home." Finally he heard something and then Jane opened the door.
Harry looked at her and his heart was breaking. Her eyes were puffy and red and she had tears on her cheeks. She didn't look at Harry but she stepped away so he can come in. 
Harry walked in, he went straight to Jane and pulls her in his arms. Jane broke down and started to cry really hard. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," she kept repeating. They just stood there, in silence, Harry holding Jane close he petted her on her back. When Jane finally stopped crying, Harry took her hand and they walked to the couch. Jane sat on it and Harry knelt down on the floor in front of her. "Please talk to me. Tell me what's wrong," Harry said while he wiped away her tears with his thumb. "What is going on here?" Harry worried. "One minute she is fine and the other she is a mess."
"At your place, I wasn't sleeping," she looked at Harry through her eyelashes.
"You heard me say I want to get to the next level?"
Jane nods.
"Jane, I like you, I really do. I am falling for you and I if someone was to ask me if I have a girl, I want to say yes. I've never felt like this before. Normally I am a very private person but you're different."
"Harry I know," Jane looks Harry in his eyes and holds his cheek, "I'm falling for you too, I'm falling hard. But I can't be with you! I am bad for your career and I'm so much older than you. You are a fantastic man, you are sweet, humble, loving, caring. You are everything a girl looks for in a man but, I can't give you what you deserve and I'm really sorry." Tears were streaming down Jane's cheeks and Harry had tears in his eyes. He didn't want to see her so heartbroken. He wanted to take away all her doubts but he doesn't know how to.
"You don't have to think about my career and it's nobody's business who I am in a relationship with. If my fans don't like it then that is their problem. A life in the spotlight, I promise to protect you but you learn to live with it. It isn't that hard. But what do you mean when you say that you can't give me what I deserve?"
Jane kissed Harry on the head, "You're 23. I know you want children. You are wonderful with them. I can't give you children. I have only one ovary. Ten years ago had a tumor on my ovary and they took it out and after that I had chemotherapy. There is a chance I can fall pregnant but it's a very small chance."
"I just want to be with you," Harry whispers, "I can live without kids." 
"No Harry! You deserve it all and I can't give it to you. I think it's better if you go now," Jane stood up and walked to the door. Harry followed her. He took her in his arms and kissed her nose. "I'll go now. I get you need time but this isn't over. I'll fight for you!" He turned around and walked away.

He rushed back home, holding in his tears. He parked his car and ran inside, opened the door and went in. After he closed the door he fell to his knees. He put his head in his hands and he started to cry. Harry was speechless. Jane is perfect for him but she is scared. He had thought for once everything would just carry on without a problem, but he was wrong. So wrong.