Chapter 30: I Gotta Find Him
Ellie's POV - *4 Weeks After Waking*
I grab my phone and search through twitter, none of the boys follow me... but I do stalk Harry's profile for about an hour until we get to the hospital for my appointment.
Tabloids have been kicking off saying Harry is going to 'a private doctor' they are saying he's 'a druggie' or things along those lines but I know he's not, well I haven't heard about him in about a year.
My dad walks me into the clinic, they think I need help mentally so they are trying to get me to talk to someone. Dad walked in on me with a razor to my wrist last night and he quickly booked an appointment, I'm not gonna tell you it was a misunderstanding because it wasn't and it wasn't just a small one; there was lots.
It's not one of those things I'd do constantly, I just wanted to make sure I was actually here. Now when I went into the coma I was attempting suicide in a toilet, I just imagined Harry being there and the paparazzi.
I get in there and there is someone I didn't want to see
My counciller.
"Hello Elena" She says
There's silence
"Now this isn't going to work if you don't participate, I have a guest watching you so please be good for him" She says
"Take your guest" I say and she looks at me with sweet eyes
"And shove him up your ass until it bleed-" She cuts me off
"That's enough ! your not trying to make it work !" She says
"Maybe I don't want it to work, maybe I want to die because everything is too confusing and the life I got use to is gone !" I shout and slam my hands down
"This is a start " She says placing her hand on mine, she looks over to the window I can't see into and looks as if to say 'see look how easy it is'
I rip my hand from under hers and pull up my sleaves
"This is the start" I say shoving my sliced arms on display
She rubs my arm
"El, your beautiful you do-" I cut her off
"If I was beautiful, I wouldn't do it" I say
"You need somebody to show you and I have a idea who" She says
"Wha-"
"HARRY !" She calls
A/N: I know self harm isn't just on wrist but it is for her; shouln't be taken lightly
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What We Once Was * Niall Horan + Ellie Goulding Fan-Fic*
FanfictionEllie+Niall Have Been Friends Since The Nappy Ages They Both Have The Same Dream... To Make It In The World And Guess What ? They Do But What About Their Friendship Too ?
