Engaged [z.m.]

A Note

I don't quite know where to begin and it's fair to say – after all of this derailment and my time spent isolated from this little space of the internet, my little space of the internet – the somewhat writer within me is a bit crippled and at a loss for words. However, today that writer mustered up some courage to acknowledge what she had done to her little space and to the people that had kept her little space alive.

There truly is no reason for why I disappeared the way that I did. I did not lose sight of myself as a writer nor did I lose sight of my book. I still know where I want to take this story and what I want to do with it. Somehow – I was unable to translate that. Something did die down within me a little bit and I will not deny it. It is as vague to me as it may be to you. Due to this, I did lose grasp of what I was doing and never got around to progressing the book and it's still stuck on an update from sometime in March.

I, in my capacity as the author of the book and a writer, apologize to all of you. I know this story isn't big and it never will be but what I've had in this time has been more than I could've asked for. When I writer gets messages from people telling them how much this book means to them, how they've cried to it, how it makes them feel something. I feel accomplished. Any writer would. Thus, I'm sorry for not giving this book my all. For all my writers blocks. For all of my consistent breaks. I'm sorry for letting this small group of people down that stayed with the story for years. You guys mean so much to me. Everything you say means so much to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Although, I'm not expecting any responses on this spontaneous pour out. I still would like to voice a question.

Would you like me to continue?

I know it has been a long time. All of you must have lost a hold on the story. I couldn't have expected anyone to stay but for the sake of all this time, I would feel incomplete if this book remained the way it was or the few readers that I had were not happy with the way things had ended. If you wish for me to continue – I will. I just want an opinion. An honest one.

Until then,

The Author – Zoha x