Bed Partners

A Politician's Promise

Tape 18, Side A

"He said he loves you? Qing ah?" My psychologist gave me a surprised look after listening to my last tape.

I nodded, "He shouldn't have said it. He should have just kept it to himself," I gritted my teeth in supressed anger. "Selfish Wang Qing..."

"Dayu ah," my psychologist gave me a sad look. "I think he was sincere while saying those words..."

"Oh I know he is sincere. I know how sincere he is. But he is still stupid. Stupid Wang Qing. Selfish Wang Qing. He never thought of me but just himself and the right things to say to get what he wants...he..." I close my eyes and exhaled loudly. "This is why I hate talking about my feelings. Most of them are jumbled inside me that it's giving me a headache if I try making sense out of them."

"Do you love him?"

I frowned at that question, "Isn't that obvious already? After listening to those tapes?"

My psychologist shook her head, "You just said you like him. And you don't even said it to him directly. You tease each other. Saying things like this is not serious. It's not even an affair. You don't like each other. You do things for each other, you share yourself to him and him to you but you both never put it into words. Dayu ah, Qing was the first one to voice out what he truly feels between the two of you."

"And so?" My vision blurred as eyes swam in tears. "Should I be happy about it? Should I congratulate myself and him for being brave? For saying it?" In anger I stood from the visitor's chair in front of my psychologist's desk.

"Dayu...you don't have to be angry," she stood up too. "Let's calm down,"

I snatched her casette player and wrestle with it to take out my 17th tape from there. "I have to go. My Mama needs me,"

"How is your mother?"

"She just gave birth," I said simply. Not looking at my psychologist as I slipped the tape inside my bag. "Twin boys."

"Twin boys...you must all be happy," my psychologist smiled at little.

"What is there to be happy about?" I said snappishly. "Qing won't see our brothers. He...can't see them." A tear fell from my face as I turned away to walk to the office door to leave.

Tape 18...

When will this end?

"You. I love you,"

Those are the words Qing uttered as he stared at my face. I don't remember taking a step towards him, but the next thing I know, I was in his arms and our lips are locked together in a passionate kiss.

His arms all over me. Hugging me. Holding me. Molding me to his body. My arms around his. Pulling him closer. Wanting him closer. Needing him closer.

He slipped his tongue between my lips and I admitted him freely. Tangling my tongue to his. Inhaling his scent. Absorbing his taste. Loving every second of that kiss.

Qing urged me to step backwards until I felt the dining table behind me. He lifted me a little and made me sit on top of the table.

I shierked and laughed and he chuckled against my jaw and showered me with little biting kisses.

"I love you. So much..." he said before capturing my face and smiling at me.

I smiled back at him but then it got erased too. "Then why will you marry another?" I asked as I lean my cheek against his shoulder.

Qing slipped a hand beneath the collar of my robe to touch my skin under neath. "I dreamed of becoming the President of this country for as long as I can remember. Everytime someone will ask me, what do you dream of becoming to be. I always said, I want to be the President of People's Republic of China."