Bed Partners

Q and A

(DAYU)

Wang Qing.

I am so mad at him. Truly. Even when I am in Europe, he really find ways to annoy the living hell out of me.

Even now, as he stood stiffly behind me while we are alone here in the men's room at Ato's pub, he annoys me.

Why won't he come to me? What? Is he seriously waiting for me to approach him first? Wow, Wang Qing can really test even a saint's patience. The handsome son of a...

Why is he devastatingly good looking? And that worried and concerned look on his eyes and face just made him more desirable. Finally, he is not so sure and confident anymore. A certain vulnerability had entered Qing's demeanor and it made him more human. Not robotic, less mechanical. Which in return made him seem attainable now and approachable.

I wonder, how many women had tried to approach him while I was away. Qing is straight. I was his first male lover. Before me, he only slept with women as he was afraid that if he turned gay it will complicate his life more. For Qing, having alexithymia or an emotion disorder is enough. Mixing it with confusing issue of sexuality and he felt like he won't be able to handle it anymore.

He has lots of issues.

"Dayu ah," he finally called my name. I move my eyes to look at his reflection in the mirror of the men's room. We heard a shuffle outside and then Ato's voice saying...

"This men's room is out of order. You can use the one closer to my office. It smells good too."

Looks like Ato is guarding the door to make sure Qing and I will have privacy as we talk.

And we will talk. This guy will hear a lot from me. I have bottled so many things inside me to complain to him.

Qing gave me more worried look and a wince, "I think Ato is mistaken. I don't think anything is wrong with this restroom..."

"Did you hurt your head again?" I asked him after shutting the water from the sink faucet. I snatched some paper towel and dry my hand as I turn to face him.

"What?" Qing frowned at me.

"Your head," I tapped a finger on my temple several times. "Did you hurt it again? Have you been in another accident where your head get jarred again?"

"No. Why would you..."

"Then why are you acting stupid around me?" I balled the wet paper towel in my right hand, then cross my arms on my chest before leaning my ass on the marble sink behind me. "Are you telling me you don't really know the reason why Ato is shooing everyone away from here when he knew that you and I are here together?"

Qing silently thought about it first before he sighed dejectedly. "Sorry," he said in a small tone.

I frowned. What is happening to him? Why is he acting like an accused man sure of his guilty verdict and just waiting for it to be announced officially?

Did he really did something here in Beijing while I was in Europe? But surely, if something extraordinary had happened to Qing, my spies would have told me. And I have a lot of spies. Kim, Ato, Mama, Papa, Denden, YaLong, Kitty, Minnie, Yal Li, Dra.Yen...etc. I have many spies. But none of then had told me that something too significant had happened to Qing.