Call Me By Your Name( Editing )

Renjun

I woke up in the middle of the night. But my body felt like I had slept for 2 days straight.

Oh God that really was one hell of a nightmare. Rather come to think about it, it was quite detailed too... For a dream that is. Like wow it seemed too damn real.

I honestly felt like breaking down in tears when I found myself back in my room.

I turned my study table light on to drink some water and that's when I noticed a sticky note on the computer which wasn't there previously.

"Dr. Jin will be dropping you off to school tomorrow. Don't forget to take your meds n behave.

-Love Amber."

Behave? When do I not behave? Amber seriously...

I decided to stay up and study for the coming test because for some reason I felt like shit.

Gotta do something productive atleast to compensate for my shitty existence.

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"Wake up kiddo- oh you're already up." Dr. Jin walked into my room the next morning.

Apparently I went a little extra with my notes and preparation and hardly slept. I mean my eyes closed for a few seconds when I sneezed... That counts right?

"Well I'll be dropping you off to school and we're gonna have a nice chat on our way."

Oh not again. Everything was going fine, why did all of a sudden he wanted to 'talk'.

I nodded.

"So umm yeah.. I'm gonna make us some breakfast.. why don't you ughh... Get ready... Huh?"

"You got it doc." I sighed and got up from my chair.

He left for downstairs in a rush.

The thing about Dr. Jin is... He's genuinely nice. It's just his profession that puts me off. I guess y'all don't know but he's my therapist and my next door neighbor too on top of it.

Now, why do I need a therapist? I honestly don't know what went wrong.

It's just one day I woke up feeling sad and then it just never went away. It got worse over the last month and that's when Dr. Jin chimed in to our place and offered mum help.

I don't exactly need help, atleast not that kind of help they're giving me. I'll figure shit out eventually... I probably just need time that's all.

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As I sat on the dining table I could feel his gaze right on me.

"I'm sorry but did I do something wrong? You look as if I'm a ticking bomb ready to explode any second." I finally asked him.

"Oh I'm sorry, It's just I can't help it. Renjun I know you're hiding something from me. C'mon pal, it's just us. I won't tell anyone. Just tell me what you were thinking yesterday."

Okay no. 1 don't 'pal' me.
No. 2 ya think I'm really going to trust you magically rn if you say so? N-to the-O sir.

"What?"