Negina | ✔️

Chapter twenty-two: "I hate him!"

"Don't let me die young. I just want you to father my young."
-Nicki Minaj
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"Shh, I just wanna show you how much I love you"

"Negina... it'll be over soon"

"I know you want it"

"Your a dirty little angle"

"It's your first time... you'll give into the pleasure soon"

"It wasn't rape. You were being such a tease!"

"Just hold still."

His words were glued to Negina's brain. She wanted them all to leave. She wanted to forget them. Maybe she could fall on her head, get a concussion, and forget everything. Negina was ready for everything. Anything in life but to get raped.

Approximately three weeks had gone by after that night. No one knew, except the trio: Khalid, Negina, and Sediq. Sediq agreed to not tell anyone because he understood the consequences Negina could get into. He knew that Negina might get kicked out and disowned. And Khalid, well he hasn't even talked to Negina after that night.

"I hate him!" Negina yells out throwing their engagement picture in a frame at the wall. " I hate him! I hate him! I can't think of it anymore! I can't! I don't want to live like this anymore!"

Negina was going crazy just thinking about that night. She threw the lamp at the wall and the glass crushed into a million pieces. She threw her blanket off the bed along with the sheets. And with that Negina starts running to the door.

She ran outside with no ones footsteps following close behind her. She wanted someone to be there. She wanted someone to help her get through this. She didn't want to go through it alone. But she couldn't tell anyone. It's too risky.

The cold morning atmosphere hit her. Negina needed fresh air. She felt like she was loosing air minute by minute. The knife was in Neginas hand as she walked somewhere. But then she does see someone behind her, a male, for sure. She couldn't go through that again. What if he came to rape Negina too.

Negina was afraid. Scared of who that person might be. What if it was Khalid. Coming to proceed with his actions from before. Negina, overwhelmed, with her hands on her knees, feeling dizzy and nauseous all of a sudden. She didn't to find out who that person was but when Negina leaned down and threw up her breakfast. Sediq was yet again the only person to come running to pick her hair up out of the way.

About five minutes passed when Negina had nothing else to vomit and she stands back up from her now crouching position, to face Sediq. She was thankful for him being here, but she wasn't going to show it.

"What are you doing here?" Negina confronts. Pushing Sediq back from herself. Sediq steps closer to her. Negina was afraid of what he would do to her. She believed that since Sediq already knew that she doesn't have her virginity. What would change if he did it too. How would Negina be able to prove anything, then. So she stepped many steps back.

"Don't come close." Negina warns stepping back with the drop-point knife clutches around her fingers inside her pocket.

"Negina," Sediq says genuinely, getting nearer and nearer to Negina. "I want to help."

Now was her chance. She had to show Sediq that she's armed and dangerous. She pulls the knife out and holds it up to her stomach closer to her heart. Sediq seeing the knife, takes a full two steps ahead. To try and take the knife away from his stupid cousin.

"I'll do it! Step back or I'll kill myself and you won't ever see me alive again!" Negina yells showing the knife to Sediq for a split second before placing it in the air, approximately a foot away from her heart.

She didn't want to do this, but neither did she want to go through that torture ever again. Negina would rather die. The knife shakes in Negina's hand as she brings it closer by an inch.

"No!" Sediq yells giving up on saving her, he decided to listen to her. In hope that it will save her. "I'll do whatever you want, just put the knife down."

"Anything?" Negina asks bringing the knife closer.

"Anything!" Sediq assures her with his hand raised. As if that was going to stop her from throwing the knife into her heart. He needed a plan. A smart plan. A plan that Negina could never uncover.

"Move" Negina says with the knife still raised.

"How can I move when you still have the knife in your hand. How can I be sure that you won't trick me." Sediq asks.

"I promise, that if you move I will put the knife down." Negina commits.

Sediq eyes her, unsure, "I don't think so, one promise isn't enough."

Negina was under the affect of pressure at the moment and Sediq knew that she would agree to anything. If just he could turn the boat onto her.

"Fine, I'll do anything you want."

Bingo.

"Put the knife down, and then I'll leave." He states clearly. But in his mind he knew she would do it. Sediq has encountered a situation like this. Only, in his office when a young worker felt too overwhelmed and decided to commit suicide.

Negina ogles him for a moment before answering, "Fine, but on one condition."

"And what might that be?"

"You have to drive me to where I tell you." Negina says.

Sediq was confused, why would she need him to drive her. More importantly, where would she need to go? But he still agrees, "Alright, put it down." Sediq says firmly. But in his mind he was yelling, pleading, for Negina to put the damn knife down and save her own life.

"Wallah?" Sediq asks when she doesn't put it down.

"Wallah." Negina promises to him.

She glares for a moment and Sediq looks at the knife, waiting for her to drop it onto the cement. Negina lowers the knife but doesn't drop it just yet. She looks at Sediq and realizes that he tricked her. But now she already promised him, she can't break the promise.

Negina has failed this fight. She had nothing left to do but to drop the knife onto the ground and fall down crying. After the knife was away from her, Sediq was sure enough to run by her side and hug her. But before that he kicks the knife away from her, far away.

"It's gonna be alright, I promise." Sediq whispers in her ear and places a kiss on the top of her head.

Negina was wailing, while hugging him tightly not letting him go. She had too much on her soul to care about anything else. But one thing for sure, Negina knew that Sediq would never attempt to assault Negina.

Authors Note-

I don't even know what I just wrote 🤯 I am very impressed with myself atm ☺️ Ahh!!! She attempted to commit suicide... for the 2nd time in this book... wtf? Right? 🤨

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