I wasn't going to take it off
ever
I was just going to pretend
everything's okay
I even fooled myself
that the mask made it easier
but it didn't
not really
not in the long run
I started to see the damage
but even then I kept it on
forgotten what it was like
unmasked
too afraid of what I'd be
without the maskall that pain inside
was slowly destroying me
but the unknown is scary
and I didn't know how to live
unmaskedhad it ever since I saw
the world is breaking apart
people lie
and they don't care
caught in their own problemsdid anyone ever tell you
bad things happen
that our world is spiralling
down into hell
and that people often live
with closed eyes and ears
don't want to know
what's really going on aroundbehind my mask
I started to see
just what a person can do
to herself
when she's alone and hurtingI wrapped my pain around me
like an invisible cloak
and the world blurred
I saw everything with a filter
question marks everywhere
on everything
why? why? why?
and the burden grew
crushing me
life made no sense
without a purpose
no reason to keep trying
to get up again and walk onand my mask
it pulled me down
because it hid mefalse sense of safety
no one can hurt me more
than myself
I had locked myself up
thrown away the key
and I was destroying myself
I just wanted it to end
feeling nothing
but feeling everything
I was going to take the mask off
show my true face
see if anyone cared at allbut the key was lost
and I was killing myself
realized I wasn't ready
to face death and Beyond
but I couldn't take off the mask
and no one saw my agony
I screamed
seeing myself fall
but no one heard
I watched, helpless
as darkness took meso sorry
forgive me
and then I saw two hands
held out to me
I grabbed them
but the mask was so heavy
and the pain so great
I cried, giving up
when through my pain I saw
tears falling onto my hands
realized that Someone did care
that Someone was seeing
what no one ever had
that He wept
for meand the knowledge
He understood me fully
He truly cared
made me trust Him
let Him take off my mask
even if I was so scared
of not hidingI became Unmasked
and my life was changed
forever
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Jst Random Words
PoetryA collection of words. Pieces of thoughts and feelings. An attempt at the impossible task of putting into words what moves in people's hearts.