Teach Me Breathless

Chapter 18

A/N: So how was their first intimate scene? I'm sorry if you expected more but never fear! The more is here! I have to warn you though. Things are about to get intense. Hang on to your seats and enjoy, my bookies!

P.S. This chapter is dedicated to my shows and music soulmate, AmaliAfiliaTate. I am so glad that I met you and you are one of the greatest friends ever!

Chapter Song: If I Lose Myself by One Republic(Losing yourself to your emotions is unavoidable.)

Chapter 18: Giving into attraction

Kyle

What the hell was I thinking?! I moved to fast. Stupid! But I just couldn't help myself. She was so beautiful tonight and it made me so glad to hear her say that she was glad to be with me at Prom instead of with Randy. The pain in my chest was getting worse by the day every single time I saw but today I just couldn't keep my feelings in any longer. I wanted her so much. So much that I was going to kiss her without any warning.

Seeing her hurt expression and guilt, I immediately regretted my actions. She had pushed me away. She still loved Randy. But if she didn't feel anything for me why would she have held like she did and look at me the way someone did at the one they cared about? She had rushed out of the gym and I knew I had to follow her. I burst out of the gym to find her crying softly.

"Mara..." I whispered brokenly. She stood up straight and sighed. She began to walk-away from me, fast, and I had to take long strides to catch up to her. I got a hold of her hand and turned her to face me. Her face said it all. She looked conflicted, torn. Like she didn't know what to do.

"Mara, I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me." I pleaded with her and she looked up at me with confused sapphire eyes. Tears were sliding down her beautiful face but no sobs came out.

"Sorry? Kyle, how could you? You're Randy's cousin!" she accused as she tried tugging her hands away from me but I held her firmly. I didn't want to hurt her but I wasn't going to let go.

"I know I'm so sorry, Mara." I choked out. The guilt was eating me up inside. But my main concern right now was Mara. She had finally stopped trying to get away but she refused to look at me. Her shoulders slumped in a defeated way.

"Why would you do that? I'm your friend, your student! And Randy was your cousin and my boyfriend! How could you betray him like that?" she cried and I felt the sting of her words in my heart. She was right. I was a backstabber. I fell for my own cousin's girl and I didn't try hard enough to stop it. Tears were threatening to fall from my eyes too but I didn't deserve to cry. Not after what I almost did. So I just stood there listening to Mara's strangled sobs. With each sob, a blow was delivered to my heart.