Teach Me Breathless

Chapter 4

A/N:Mara's back in school!Ah!!!This chapter was so hard to write.Stupid writer's block!Please bear with my mistakes(if there are any).Enjoy,peeps!

P.S. Dedicated to my friend, SammyMantha.You are strong,Sam.Hang in there!

Chapter Song:Mad World by Gary Jules(Describes what Mara feels when she returns to school)

Chapter 4:Routine

Mara

My heart was pounding as we approached our friends.I see everyone's eyes trained on me as I walked through the parking lot.I tried to tune out their hushed whispers and focused on my friends who were waiting for me.I saw Bree who was more to the front than the others.They all had anxious expressions on their faces and something else.Something I've become familiar with these past few weeks;sympathy.Oh,no.Not my friends.They knew I didn't want their pity but I could see them trying really hard to stay strong for me.Especially Bree and Felix.Felix is,was,Randy's bestfriend and Bree's boyfriend.He was the assistant captain of the Grazefield Sharks and Bree was the head cheerleader.Together along with Randy we were the two most popular couples in school.The student body even had couple names for us.Marandy for Randy and I.Brelix for Bree and Felix.We were inseparable.But everything fell through after Randy...died.

They both made efforts by visiting me at home but most times I was locked up in my room crying myself into oblivion.I could see that they were suffering as well.Randy was a good friend to all of us.He was loyal,kind,caring and patient towards us.I guess you could say that he was the glue that held all of us together.Our other friends included Sara,Trisha,Michael,Tommy and of course,Trav.Trav likes Sara and she likes him too although they've never gone out on a date.The attraction's there but no attempts have been made yet.I inhaled deeply as we got nearer to our group.I knew I had to face them sometime but I honestly didn't know how to.But I'm here now,no turning back.

"Mara!"Bree exclaimed and she surged forward to envelope me in a bear hug.I smiled and hugged her back.I missed this.I missed being in the comfort of my friends.

"God,I missed you!"Bree grumbled into my shoulder and I smiled at my bestfriend's affection towards me.She never failed to show me that I was stuck with her forever and there was no getting rid of her.Bree was a very pretty girl.She had shoulder length straight platinum blonde hair and vibrant light blue eyes.She was about an inch shorter than me which makes her about 5'6.She was a cheerleader and so she had the body for it.She was lithe and graceful.I struggled to keep my tears from spilling out but a tear escaped and I wiped it away gingerly.

"I missed you too,Bree.I'm so sorry about the past few weeks."I owed an apology to her and all our friends.Ive been behaving so selfishly these days.It didn't occur to me how Randy's absence affected them.Bree's grip tightened and she shushed me.

"It's okay.We understand what you're going through.We all miss him."she assured me but I still felt bad for neglecting them.Bree finally released me only to be passed into Felix's secure and steely arms.He scooped me into a comforting hug that.I couldn't help but lean into his embrace.Felix was a part of Randy and I couldn't be more happy to still have him by my side.

"Hey,Felix."I murmured into his ear and he chuckled softly.

"Hey,Mara.It's so good to hear your voice again."he whispered into my hair before letting me go.Felix was tall at 5'11.He was very muscular but not to the point where veins can be visisbly seen on his neck and arms.He had short curly hazel brown hair and soft green eyes.He somewhat resembled a young Ashton Kutcher.He complained every single time we mentioned this and it had all of us laughing when he started whining.Especially Randy.

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The rest of our group came up to me and gave me hugs and we proceeded to the gym to have the weekly assembly and I did not expect what we found when we arrived.There was a huge banner of Randy on the stage.The principal went up to the podium to give his speech and everyone quieted down to listen.

"Good morning,everyone.The school year started off with a bad start.Three weeks ago,we lost a beloved student.Three Sundays ago,Randy Meade and Mara Collins were involved in a very terrible accident.All of us knew Randy as a good student and a great friend.He brought pride to this school and he will forever be in our hearts.His loss---"

I blocked out everything because it hurt too much.Tears were threathening to come out and i didn't want anyone to see me cry.Abruptly I stood up and dashed out off the gym.Once I was sure I was alone,the tears burst out freely but I kept on making my way to the toilet.Why does he have to be wherever I go?Why must he continue to tort---Damn!That hurt!I bumped hard into someone and sturdy arms reached out to steady me.

"Whoa,slow down.Are you alright?"a warm and brooding voice asked me.I nodded without looking up.I feel so embarrased!A hand reached out to give me a handkerchief.A handkerchief.Wow,who said chivalry was dead.I took it gratefully and mumbled my thanks before scurrying away to hide in the toilet to continue my crying which was turning into a habit.

Fifteen minutes passed,I was still crying silently,letting all the pain out.A knock startled me and I sucked in a harsh breath.I gingerly wiped my tears away with the handkerchief.

"Mara?Are you okay?"Bree's voice inquired worriedly.I sighed in relief that it was just Bree.If it was someone else I wouldn't have known what to do.I fixed myself and opened the door.Bree stood there waiting and when she took in my appearance she pulled me into her arms.

"Oh,Mara...I know.I know it hurts.It hurts me too.We all miss him."she soothed me and I put my arms around her.I held onto her for dear life.Literally.I wouldn't know how to survive right now without Trav and Bree.They were my safe line right now and forever.

"I love you,Bree."I sobbed and she would have hugged me even tighter if it was possible but she was already practically glued to me now.

"I love you too,Mara.I'll always be right here with you."she assured me and I held on to her very word.I was in a broken and weak state right now but Bree and Trav would make sure i didn't completely break into a billion pieces.

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Are you getting tired of Mara crying?I apologize for that...But to every good there is a bad!There'll be happiness in the book too!Coming soon,my bookies!Comment,vote and follow me please.