Bruised Heart//Kakashi x Reader

22

It was no surprise that you weren't able to get much sleep. Horrid thoughts plagued your mind the more you thought about Kakashi leaving for such a long period of time. So many 'what if's' and a constant wonder of how you'll be able to cope with not waking up to him every morning, not being able to hear his smooth velvety voice or his hoarse voice that he has when he first wakes up in the morning. 

All you were able to think about was Kakashi. How his eyes lit up whenever he read those lewd books, or how his eyes closed ever so slightly when he was happy about something. The way his muscles looked in his tight training shirts, and how he snores lightly when he finally falls asleep. 

There were so many things about him that you loved so dearly, including the beauty mark that graced his features. You turned onto your side, facing Kakashi's sleeping figure. You smiled at his face, he looked so peaceful while he was asleep, all the stress and worries around him seemed to be at rest. You brought your hand up to his face, caressing it gently, wanted to memorize all of his features.

You knew it probably sounded silly, but he was the love of your life. Your first love to be exact. Of all the things you've been through, the pain you've endured, the sorrow you've felt... Losing Kakashi would be the worst thing that could happen to you. Shaking your head, you tried to shake those thought out of your head. If there was one thing you knew, a Hatake promise is one that is kept. Kakashi has never let you down before, he sure as hell wouldn't do it now. Especially when he has two things on the line; His unborn child, and the women he has fallen head over heels with.

You knew that even though you told Kakashi not to think about you during the mission, he was going to do just that. You rolled your eyes while smiling more. You loved how protective he was with you, it was something that made you feel special and loved. You glanced out the window, noticing the sun just starting to rise off on the horizon. You inhaled slowly before releasing the breath. 'Only three days until he has to leave...I better go and start preparing breakfast' You could feel your eyes watering slightly, through all of what you thought of all night, that was the thing that made you the most emotional. The fact he had to leave so soon, you felt as if he would be leaving any minute, even though it was three days away. 

But, that's what love does to you. It makes the happy moments the most amazing time you've had in your entire life, and it's supposed to make the saddest better. However, you were starting to realize that it was also a great cause of pain. But it was a pain you loved oh so much. 

You slowly, and quietly got out of the bed, throwing your robe and slippers on, before you headed to the kitchen. You knew you wanted to write something for Kakashi to take with him for when he had to leave, something to keep him going. But you also wanted to make a song for him, something to show your love. You had to have it ready by Friday, nodding to yourself in agreement, you started to make breakfast, not noticing Yato had woken up and had come out of his bedroom.

"Good morning (y/n)," Yato's tired voice filled the once quiet room, a soft yelp was heard from you, due to the fact he had startled you a bit. You turned to him glaring slightly, making him chuckle. You had rolled your eyes at him before turning your attention back to the food on the stove. Yato had grown to be like a brother to you, you two had developed a strong bond of trust during the time the two of you had known each other. It was because of this, you had to ask him a favor.

"Yato...I need you to promise me something." You spoke softly and quietly, not wanting Kakashi to hear what you were going to say. You turned the stove off before turning toward Yato, the spatula still in your hand. "Kakashi is one of the most talented ninjas I know, and I'm not just saying that because he's my boyfriend either," You sighed, setting the spatula down. "Even though he is extremely talented, he can get distracted...Yato, please, I'm begging you. Please- just please bring him home safe to me. I-I...Please." You strained out, tears sliding down your face. You felt a mixture of shame and sadness grow within you. It was rare for you to beg, Yato knew this. 

Surprised by your request, he stared at you for a few moments processing what you had said begged. Your crying didn't die down either, if anything, him not responding to you made it worse. He walked over to you, pulling you into a loose hug in an attempt to calm you down. "(Y/n) listen to me, I will protect Kakashi with my life. You have my word." He said quietly once he heard your cries slowly die down. 

"But for now, you need to focus on taking care of yourself and preparing for when we do leave. Like Kakashi and I said last night, we will be back as soon as we possibly can. Our job is going to be completing this mission, your job is going to be taking care of the baby and you." He pulled away from the hug, walking over the stove and trying some of the food that was in the pan. 

"Mmm delicious as always." He whispered before turning back to you, a small smile on his face. "When we come back I expect a healthy looking you and a healthy niece or nephew." You smiled, his attempt to make you feel better working. You placed your hand on your tummy, smiling down at it. 'You're going to have a lot of people who are going to love and look after you.' You bit your lip before laughing softly. 

"That reminds me, I have to tell Sasuke what's going on, he'll probably be the one that's gonna help me out the most. He was really excited yesterday when I told him and Naruto they were going to be uncles." Yato nodded and smiled your way, truth was, he was also really excited. 

"That also reminds me of something. (Y/n) since I was apart of your chakra network for so long, fragments of my own chakra are sort of stitch into yours. Basically what I'm saying is, your child is most likely going to have special powers. You won't know until he/she is born though." You pursed your lips thinking about what he said while handing him a plate full of the food you had made.

"I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it then," You smiled at him before you started to make Kakashi's plate. "Would you mind waking up Kakashi for me, please?" You asked sweetly before setting down the plates you had made onto the table. Yato nodded before disappearing, only to come back with a sleepy grey haired ninja. You, however, didn't notice because you were in the kitchen cleaning up.

"Good morning beautiful," Kakashi's arms wrapped around your waist as he snuggled his face into the crook of your neck, planting soft kisses on it. You bit your lip before turning your head slightly, kissing his lips softly before turning your attention back to the dishes.

"Good morning handsome, go eat up, I made Kobachi and Yakizakana with some tea."(Basically fancy words for veggies and grilled fish cx) You smiled at him before shooing him out of the kitchen. You looked over as both of the boys were engrossed in both their food and their conversation. You smiled, the smell of Kakashi's cologne lingered on your shirt, without them noticing, you brought your shirt up to your nose, memorizing the smell. It smelled like home to you. 

After you finished the dishes, you sat down at the table beside Kakashi, taking his hand into yours. He smiled at you, squeezing your hand softly. "We need to go over to Sasuke's today, let him and Naruto know what's happening. Hey, um Kashi?" You asked, the whole Sakura situation popping in your head. "Yes, my love?" The way he spoke gave you butterflies in your tummy.

"About the whole Sakura situation, I don't really think her being involved in this situation will be a good thing, especially with the number of threats she has said to me."You scrunched up your nose thinking about it. Kakashi nodded understandingly, before pulling you into his lap, a small squeak escaping your lips. "We'll go to Sasuke's later, and Sakura doesn't have to be involved it's our business, not hers."He rested his head on your shoulder and you wiggled around in his lap trying to get comfortable.

You weren't really thinking when you started, but you soon figured out the consequences of it when you felt Kakashi's hard member under you. Blushing, you glanced over at Kakashi's face, noticing a light pink dusting across his face. Yato had left the house a few moments prior to the current situation. 

Even though you and Kakashi had slept together, you had only done it once, so you were still embarrassed. You stood up abruptly, saying you were going to hop in the shower, leaving Kakashi with a hard-on at the dining room table.  You did indeed get in the shower, you just had no clue what was going to happen because of it.

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Yes, there will be a lemon in the next chapter. No, I don't have any remorse or shame cx  If you don't like that shizzle then don't read it. You have been warned.

~Author Chan