Story of Randomness 2 (COMPLETED)

PLEASE KILL ME

{Monday, December 4th, 2017}

Sooooo...

I've had a HORRIBLE DAY.

Please take notice to the title. I'm NOT suicidal, I promise. I'm just really upset and tired and angry after my horrible Monday.

Oh, and I know you guys have never actually seen me cuss before, but some words may slip into this chapter. Be warned!

So I went to the library as usual this morning and Michael wasn't there. Ugh. I texted him and he never answered, so I assumed he didn't have his phone. So I went to first period where we had family life (a class all about sex and STI's). That class was disgusting, let me tell you. Anyway, all throughout that class, I kept feeling stabbing pains in my abdomen. I knew my period was most likely on its way, but I dismissed the pain. I went to the courtyard after first period and met Michael. We talked for a bit, hugged, and then parted ways. In second period, we did group work and Donovan spent the whole time yelling at the rest of our group and saying that we weren't doing anything. After second period, I met up with Haley and we went to meet Michael. As we were walking, I felt kinda wet in between my legs, but I dismissed it again. We met Michael and walked to third period. Michael tried to hold my hand, but my cousin was standing nearby and we didn't want him to see us. All we did in third period was watch a video. We went to lunch an Michael didn't hold my hand or anything. On our way back from lunch, he didn't even walk with me. He walked with one of his friends. We already don't get much time together just the two of us and then he goes off and hangs with one of his friends during our time together!? What the actual hell (excuse my language)?! So I walked up to the classroom alone and sat down. He came in a second later and walked over to my seat. He talked while I sat there nodding silently. I think he realized I seemed upset, but he didn't mention it then. Oh, and going to and from lunch, he walked out of the classroom ahead of me instead of waiting on me inside the classroom like he always does. Again, what the hell (excuse my language)!? During third period, I sent out streaks on Snapchat and said that I needed to rant, but only one person answered. That was Amy. I ranted to her and then she never replied. Then, I texted caitlin1_ , who responded immediately. Thank you best fren!!!! ❤️❤️❤️Anyway, after third period, I walked with Michael to the parking lot. He said I looked angry and asked what was up. I told him it was about him and he immediately wanted an explanation. It's all about our almost kiss. I'm just so conflicted and I don't know what to do. Michael said that it wasn't a big deal, but the way he was acting today makes it seem like a big deal. He wouldn't leave and kept asking me to tell him. I told him I'd tell him tomorrow and left. He's really worried that he did something wrong and stuff, but that's not REALLY what it is. It's complicated. PM if you want details. Then I also ranted to Eva in fourth period about it. I told her about my dance recital tonight and about how Michael might come because his sister dances with the same studio as me. I told her I didn't want him there because he'd probably try to find me and talk to me. So Eva gave me a note to give to him that says something along the lines of "shut up because I can hear you a mile away". Thank you Evie!!!!❤️❤️❤️

So yeah.

Am I being unreasonable?

It's partially because I also found out that I AM on my period. FANTASTIC TIMING, MOTHER NATURE!!! Bitch... (excuse my language)

Anyway. So yeah. That was my day.

Sorry again for the explicit language in this chapter. I couldn't help myself. It all kinda slipped and now I feel bad...😐 oops!