Story of Randomness 2 (COMPLETED)

The Convo

{Tuesday, December 5th, 2017}

Soooooo...

I talked to Michael about my feelings and stuff today. He said that he didn't think things were awkward. I reminded him that we all have our own opinions. That was my opinion. Anyway, I told him that I think I'm ready to kiss him and he said he wanted me to be absolutely sure that I'm ready and that he made a mistake. He said he wants our first kiss to be more "spontaneous". I do agree with that in a way, but a first kiss is a first kiss. It doesn't matter where or when the kiss is, it matters who the kiss is with, but whatever. Anywho, he basically said that he's not really ready. He also said that the kiss needs to be "in the right place at the right time". I also sort of agree with this. I'm just frustrated that I'm ready now and he isn't. But, another problem has come along. Michael and I seem almost distant now. He won't hold my hand or tell me he loves me just like a few weeks ago. You guys remember that, right?

But I don't want to bring it up again and sound nit picky.

So, I wrote up a letter to give him when I'm ready that explains all of my feelings about this. I wrote it down because I knew if I tried to explain it in person, I'd break down and cry.

I'll let you guys know what happens.

Thanks again to caitlin1_ and Eva for all of your support through this difficult time. I love you both!!!❤️❤️❤️