Story of Randomness 2 (COMPLETED)

My Mental State

Sooo...

I've been questioning my mental state lately.

I've been having horrible mood swings and being around Michael seems to be making them worse.

He's acting distant (not really talking to me, not holding my hand, not telling me he loves me, etc) and it makes me mad and sad.

So it seems like my emotions are battling each other inside my head at the moment.

Now, you may be asking yourself why mood swings are making me question my mental state.

It's not just the mood swings, it's the way I control and deal with them.

And I'm not dealing well with them.

(I'm about to drop a huge bomb on you guys, so be warned!)

I was having suicidal thoughts Monday and Tuesday.

I was also thinking about cutting myself.

I didn't attempt suicide or cut myself or anything, but the thoughts were threatening to destroy me from the inside out.

I'm sure people can tell I haven't been myself lately.

I'm acting different and I'm distancing myself from everyone except caitlin1_ (thank you for the advice and reminding me that my life matters) and Eva.

If you guys want more details or anything like that, PM me.