Love And Hate A Gideon Cross Love Story

Chapter 12

Gideon's  POV
I could not believe my ears.  I felt sick to my core,  I felt torn,  broken,  empty, I felt alone.  How could she have kept that from me?  I ran through the events of last night that lead to this morning,  it broke me.  The man who once held so much of control,  has lost all sense of it. On the car ride back home,  all I could think of,  was how stupid and selfish I was.  I had loved Serena since I met her.  How could I let myself stoop so low.

She once had my baby inside of her,  I caused her to lose it!  Me!!  I never thought of myself as a father,  but I could have had a son or daughter now. God! How could I let myself entertain another woman,  whilst the one I loved,  drowned in pain. 
When we arrived at my apartment building I walked into the elevator waiting for her to join me,  but instead,  she took the stairs,  I couldn't blame her,  I didn't even want  to be around myself. It was already 06:00am. I entered my apartment and poured myself a neat whiskey.  I heard her come in,  she dashed right past me,  I looked over my shoulder but couldn't get myself to turn around.  I heard her bedroom door slam shut and I knew she was crying herself to sleep.  I was amazed that she even agreed to stay a while longer.  I remembered how hurt she looked the day she broke up with me. 

I was at my home office,  discussing stats with Tony.  When I heard a faint knock on the door,  surely it can't be Serena ,she knows she can always come in,  I ended the call with Tony and allowed the person in.  To my surprise  it was Serena, but she didn't look like herself,  I knew she'd been sick for a while but I thought she was better now.  We weren't doing very good,  we'd drifted apart over the last few weeks.  I have been spending more time with my ex fiancee Corinne,  not in a romantic way,  but we have many business interests in common , so we have met on multiple occasions discussing this.  I have however made it extremely clear that I'm in a committed relationship,  and was not interested in Corinne like that. Serena sat down and played with the ring I bought her on our one year anniversary,  she looked up at me and I noticed how swollen her eyes were,  she had been crying.

"What's wrong angel? " I asked,  knowing something bad was coming. 
" Gideon.." she begun,  and took a deep breath.  " I have been thinking,  and recently,  you've been gone a lot more,  you've been spending more time with Corinne and I don't  feel comfortable with it.  Ever since I've graduated,  after we came back from Mexico,  your attitude towards me changed" I looked at her dumbfounded,  surely she must be hallucinating. I didn't notice anything change. Other than our sex life,  most things are the same  , we used to have an active sex life,  but since Mexico,  we haven't been intimate,  and it is my fault for being away so much.  I know she's begun to spend less and less time here,  but that was because I wasn't here,  but that can change,  she can come with me.
"Nothing has changed my angel",  I say,  I gauge her reaction , but,  nothing.  I then noticed her outfit,  she wore a black sweater and black sweatpants and no makeup,  she still looked stunning,  but she didn't look like herself. "Gideon,  what I'm saying is,  things are not the same,  we are not the same,  we've grown apart we need to accept that and move on with our lives " she said,  her voice cracking at the end.  " what exactly do you mean?  Are you breaking up with me? " I asked,  pain evident in my voice, she never said anything  she simply nodded,  I couldn't believe this,  she stood up and said " Goodbye" and ran out.  I stood in my office,  numbed by the pain I couldn't find a word to describe. 

Just thinking of this made me mad,  how did I not see her pain,  I hate myself for it. We were so in love and I screwed up,  me!!  Not her!!

I remember meeting her for the first time

I just got a call from Andrew my personal assistant,  who reminded me of the charity gala that's being held tonight for abused and neglected children  , I loved supporting these causes,  however the gala's held in their favor was a pain to attend.  It was a very high-class and prestige event,  therefore I had to get my stylist on the phone,  I told her to keep my tux classic,  "and your date,  sir? " I chuckled at her impasse question,  " I'm going alone" with that  I ended the call.

*later that day * I had just left for the gala and was not looking forward to the boring conversations , I walked in and under the gazebo that held all the celebrities before going onto the carpet,  I noticed a young woman in a stunning black gown with a high slit showing off her oh- so- long- legs,  "damn" I thought to myself,  as I walked closer to her,  she was called to walk the carpet, I was up next. I had to know who this girl was,  she was beautiful.  After walking  the carpet and doing an interview here and there we went into the marquee which the gala was being held at , and by luck, the Goddess I had seen earlier  was seated at the same table as I,  my place card was next to hers.  " Wow the heavens must be looking down at me tonight" I took a seat and greeted her firmly.  " Gideon" I said and reached out my hand towards her.  She smiled at me kindly  , and my heart melted at the sight of her smile.  " Serena" the angel responded and took my hand.