Love And Hate A Gideon Cross Love Story

Chapter 31

Waking up was a chore today , I felt this unnecessarily heavy weight on my chest , I was burdened by nightmares all of last night .

I just realised I was in our bed. I know I fell asleep on the floor and I know Annalise fell asleep next to me.

Out of curiosity , I hopped out of bed , threw on my robe and slippers and walked out of the bedroom in search of whomever carried me to bed , secretly hoping it wasn't Gideon.

To my demise , there he was , back facing me , he looked out of the window , on his cell , really engrossed in the call. His jaw was clenched, eyes shut closed, he was clearly in distress. I just hope it wasn't what I thought it was.

He turned around and saw me standing there , I bet I looked like a mess , my eyes were practically bloodshot , my hair a tangled mess, and the bags under my eyes could carry groceries. He walked slowly toward me , never breaking eye contact, I realised neither one of us had said anything , which brought me to my next discovery, he knew. I know this because he was treating me like a fragile little girl, and that , that killed me. The one man who always saw me as nothing but perfection  , is now recognizing just how broken I am. I hadn't realised that I had turned away , and watched my feet run away from him , up to my room, shut the door and locked it.

Locked him out , shut him out, of all my brokenness, all my pain , and every weakness, I didn't want him to know , suddenly a thought crossed my mind; Where was Annalise? I didn't see her downstairs. I decided to text her.

No response.

I guess I've finally gotten what I've always wanted.

Complete isolation.

I spent the rest of the day , sulking , crying, over thinking, and hating myself. I re-lived every painful memory, and it made me sick, physically , I know I have to deal with it. So I pulled myself together , took a shower, and left the house .

I was on my way to the shooting range, when my phone rang continuously, it was Paris. I asked her to cancel all my scheduled meetings and appointments until further notice.

The feel of the cold metallic heaviness in my hands , was somehow invigorating. I felt powerful , on top of the world, but most of all , I felt vengeful.

I fired bullet after bullet into each human like figurine , picturing his face in all of them . I continued to shoot , refill and fire off again, until I heard something else, something that shouldn't be here. A person , I took of the noise cancelling headphones and turned around so quickly , I amazed myself .

I saw nothing.

Pure darkness.

"I have a gun, and believe me I am not afraid to use it, either step out or not, either way I'm going to shoot"

After getting no response, I fired in the direction I heard the noise come from .
I heard a scream.

Sinister of me to smile, I know, yet I did.

I walked towards the noise , armed and ready to fight back , I had extra bullets on me so I wasn't afraid.

Low and behold.

The man of my nightmares, wounded on the ground.

If only I cared.

He cried in agony , and I enjoyed every moment , I kicked him around , checked for any weapons , and wouldn't you know , he had knives , guns , all sorts of crazy things , he clearly wasn't here to talk , he obviously had been following me because no one knew about this place.

No one.

Without thinking twice, I undid the safety on my new found friend , comforted by the irony of the situation and my strength , I was finally taking a stand against this monster.

One, two , three , four , five. Once I caught a pedophile alive. Six , seven , eight ,nine , ten. I will never let you live again.

I drained out some of the fuel from my car , poured it all over the lifeless body in front of me , threw a match at the disgusting piece of trash and watch it light up like the fourth of July.

I waited and waited until nothing was left. None.

No prints

No dental records

None.

And then I poured some more fuel , and lit that bitch on fire.

I walked away feeling stronger than ever.

I'm taking back my power, I'm back.