Love And Hate A Gideon Cross Love Story

Chapter 30

"Hey Stranger" Annalise sounded surprised to hear from me , which stung , a lot.
"I'm so sorry Annalise" I could honestly see her smile through the phone, she was the sweetest , the best ,that's why I trust her with my life, that's why I trust her with this.
"What's up? I haven't heard from you in ages!" She practically yelled into my ear.
"There's been so much happening , it's just a lot , you know?"
"A lot , how?"
"Well Gideon and I live together , I'm not sure if its temporary or for good , but yeah , that happened.." my voice sort of drifted off at the end.
"You know , I know you better than anyone, I can tell somethings up, so are we gonna do this the easy way or the hard way ?" She asks with a humorous note.
It's true , she does know me better than anyone .
"This is really hard to say , I need you for this , you wanna come to New York? You haven't yet tested out your bedroom at my new place , I'm offended" I say jokingly, to lighten the mood , I'm so scared to tell her this .
"I'll be there soon"
"I'll send you the jet."
We said goodbye shortly after that , to keep my mind off of everything I started cooking all of her favorite foods, and  got ready for her arrival , Dave will be awaiting her, as soon as she lands, he is bringing her directly to my place , so I just want everything to be perfect , I know she'll be famished and cooking helps me relax in a strange way .

It's been about 2 hours maybe even 3 , since the call with Annalise. I'm pretty sure shes on her way to the apartment now, and true to my words I heard the elevator ding and there she was.

"OH MY GAWD" , that's all she said , just like those home renovation shows.

I ran up to her and pulled her into such a huge hug I was afraid I may have broken her, but of course it was  Annalise , so that was stupid to think. I was tearing up, I had missed her so much .

"You , little miss thang , owe me an apology , where the hell have you been this whole time?"

" It's just been ...crazy" I couldn't help the sigh that escaped my lips .

We spoke for the next 2 hours, about life , work and all the stuff in between whilst stuffing our faces with all the food I cooked up for Annalise.

"SOOOOO" and that ladies and gentlemen is where things took a dramatic turn.

"It happened " , that's all I had to say for her to know exactly what I'm talking about.

She stared at me mouth agape , eyes wide in shell shock.

"NO, HOW??? I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW ITS POSSIBLE!?"

"He contacted me about two weeks ago, I was at work , Paris said I had a last minute appointment, I didn't remember scheduling anything , I walked out to see who it was , thinking it was Gideon being goofy , but to my unfortunate surprise it was him , with that same sick grin on his face..." I looked down , shaking my head , almost as if that would remove the image of the sadistic fuck who ruined my childhood.

"Have you told Gideon?" Annalise asked , concern lacing every word she spoke.

"No , he doesnt know about any of this." My voice cracked , and at that point I did little to cover it up , this is what happens when you've been traumatized and tormented for years , even in your sleep.

Snowy was asleep in my lap , she was such a cute little dog , I'm so happy mommy got her for me . She always licks my face when she wants me to hold her . Mommy says its because she loves me very much, I love her too . My pretty snowy.

"Uh oh Snowy be very quite, or he'll hear us "

Snowy and I were under my bed , hiding from him , if he finds us he'll make me take my clothes off again , I dont wanna take my clothes off , it's cold and I don't wanna get sick again , or he'll make me drink that brown stuff that hurts my throat , he says it's good for me , but I know hes lying because it makes me feel funny. Medicine makes me better it doesn't make me feel funny.

Snowy growled , oh no he's gonna find us , he pulled me out from my hiding spot under my bed , he grabbed snowy from my arms , and flung her across the room , I screamed so loud , she wasn't moving , poor snowy it's all my fault , I shouldn't have hid from him . He pulled my hair and it hurt me so I screamed louder hoping someone would come in and tell him to stop , he held me by my neck, I couldn't breathe anymore , my eyes felt so funny , I could see teeny tiny black stuff in front of me , and then all I could see was black."

I was crying , I was shaking .

I. Was. A . Mess.

A weak little mess , sprawled across the floor , Annalise stroked my head and held me close. I was too numb.

Too far gone.