The Unrevived

24 | "I hate you!"

Settings: The wedding lawn

Revi

I'm breathing in your absence,

I wish that you were here.

If one hand caresses me with your warmth and the other fighting for my existence,

I promise you, I will never leave.

•••••••••

Rebecca's body lay infront of me.
Her face was calm, her hair.... disarrayed. Her hands were propped right next to her body and her eyelids closed in silence.
She didn't carry that smile on her face which made me want to hug her, she didn't have that motherly attitude so that she could make me do my clothes or eat my food and nor did she remain alive to wipe my tears that were non-stop flowing now.
All our memories together as kids came flooding back through my mind.

We would go out for dinner, only the two of us when our nanny wasn't there, and we would order such dishes which made the waiter so confused and we would laugh at his expressions when he would walk away with the two most simplest dishes in their restaurant.

We would go cycling on Sunday mornings and talk with all our neighbours. She was always best at making conversations.
We always had ice cream after college and we would always take a selfie with our messy faces smeared with ice cream to show our friends.
We shopped on our own and always cooked the most crazy but yummy meals everyday.
She was my everything when it came to daily life problems. She was the one who fought with my bully in eighth grade, which from then on she didn't bully or bother looking my way.

Rebi just left me without thinking what she meant to me.
We were so close, nothing remained a secret between us but death had finally taken stand and brought us both into a darkness that we both won't be able to come out of.

I held her face in my palms. She did betray me but her loss was more than her betrayal for me to take up. No one here cared who she was or how she died. She was alone, quite how I felt with her gone now.
Everything happened so fast that I didn't even have time to ask her where was she these five years and why hadn't she come to Brazil when I had messaged her after settling in with Jaden?
Everything remained hidden. No one was there for me, to tell me what was happening.

I kissed her forehead and sucked in my tears. I was gonna find out who did this and fast. He stole my soul sister away from me, he killed the most beautiful angel I had ever seen. I had now a strong cause to live.
My mother's death was still a question.

Did she really die due to blood cancer?

My father's words stung my heart when he spit each lie out of his mouth. I couldn't make myself believe him.
Bile swarmed upto my throat, making me feel soar.

I didn't feel welcome into any realm now.
I looked once at Rebecca's face.

She didn't deserve this.

I slowly got up. I swiped away the tears that had nearly dried up near my eyelids.
The situation was very brittle to handle and I wasn't ready for any happy event. Me and Jaden could get married some other time. I needed time to sort out my emotions.
I didn't know whether Jaden would understand this but I knew this was right.