Love at First Sight

So Close

    When I got to my room I sat there in silence but I then got a text message from Jungkook asking where I was
  
Jungkook🤪: bestieee where did u goo?
  
    I didn't respond I just left him on read and set on phone down on the edge of my bed and went to the bathroom to take off my make up and to change into some pajamas
      I heard people from downstairs calling me names like a "bad mom" "insecure wife" I stood there and looked at myself in the mirror
     Your worth nothing you are basically nothing to yourself or your family no one loves you enough to be with you right now
       I find a razor on the edge of the bathtub and start getting ideas....no Mya don't do someone out there still loves you....do it Mya you are worth nothing and no one like you
     All these thoughts running throughout my brain I didn't know what to do with my life anymore
      I thought about how mason would feel to tell all his friends that his mom committed suicide
      I started crying but this time I slid down the bathroom wall and started cutting thinking that no ones loves me....no one will care if I die
   Cut after cut I began to cry in pain and self stress
     But before I could make that last cut Myles and Jungkook bust through the bathroom door and are horrified to see my arms drenched with blood gushing out of my arm quickly
     As soon as the sit down by my side to see what happened that whole time span just blacked out and after that I remembered absolutely nothing...
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Sorry for such a short chapter!! Me and my family are trying to get ready for this two week winter break!!