One Shot Series 3

The Letter Justin Finds After Demi's Death

Justin,

If you're reading this, it means I've gone, that the disease won. I am so sorry, I really am. When I was diagnosed four months ago, when the doctors told me there was nothing they could do, that it had progressed too far, I felt like my whole world had collapsed. But you were there to hold me together. You kept me positive, kept me laughing, and gave me the time of my life, even though I could see how much it hurt you to know that I didn't have long left. I cannot thank you enough for not leaving me, for staying by my side, because I know I would never have made it as long as I have if you hadn't. I'm not afraid of dying, it's inevitable, but just the thought of leaving you alone in itself is enough to kill me. I love you so much. I love you I love you I love you. There aren't words for how special you are to me, how perfect you are. The thought that some day soon I won't see your smile anymore... Imagining the situation reversed, I know you won't want to hear what I'm about to ask of you, but it's true, I need it to be true. I want you to move on. I want you to find a girl who is incredible, kind and beautiful, someone who is so deserving of you. I want you to fall head over heels in love, I want you to have kids, I want you to be happy. I need you to be so so happy, and that need is ten times more powerful than the pain of you loving anyone other than me. I'll be watching over you, I promise, wherever I go. I don't think I can write much more, it's a bit difficult to concentrate, I'm just babbling now. I love you. Be happy, and always smile. I love you.

Forever yours, Demi x