3:26 am

e i g h t e e n

e i g h t e e n

10:47 pm
holden
you've been ignoring me

10:54 pm
quinn
what?? no i haven't

10:55 pm
holden
i texted you three times today, quinn

10:58 pm
holden
quincy, can you just explain why you're upset?

11:02 pm
holden
i know the andy thing was annoying, and im really sorry about that. i know drunk texts are probably your least favorite things at this point

11:05 pm
holden
quincy, i am begging for you to talk to me

11:12 pm
quinn
to be completely honest... i am upset over the text. maybe i shouldn't be, but i am. i can't explain it, it just bothered me.

11:12 pm
quinn
i've been thinking a lot today... maybe seeing each other would be weird? it might go badly, and i don't know if want to deal with it right now. it's just freaking me out

11:12 pm
quinn
of course i would be excited to see you... i just don't know how i would take you coming to see me once and then leaving all over again. especially if things don't go well.

11:14 pm
holden
are you telling me not to come visit?

11:16 pm
quinn
i just think it might be best if you didn't.

11:17 pm
holden
first off, that's ridiculous.

11:17 pm
holden
what could go wrong? talking to you has made me so much happier, quinn. i want to see the girl who has had me laughing for the past month

11:18 pm
quinn
look, you have andy to worry about now. i wouldn't want her to feel weird about you going to see your ex girlfriend

11:18 pm
holden
why tell her im going to see my ex girlfriend? you're a really good friend of mine, quinn, the ex girlfriend status means nothing at this point

Great, I thought. I'm just his really good friend. I sighed before taking the time to think of a response.

11:20 pm
quinn
i'm just really busy right now... i don't know how much time i'll have to see you. it's getting late... i'll talk to you later, holden.

I sat my phone down on the nightstand, turning off my notifications before doing so. I knew I was being horrible to Holden, and I hated that I was, but I couldn't explain to him why I was upset.

I also wanted to see Holden, but I knew as soon as he left, things would be hard for me. I knew my actions were selfish, and I knew he didn't deserve to be treated like this, but I also felt hurt. I knew he hadn't purposely hurt my feelings, but he had.

I bit my lip and slowly looked over at my phone. Wanting to see if he had responded, I reached for my phone and brought it closer to me.

11:25 pm
holden
i am coming to see you, quincy.

11:25 pm
holden
goodnight, sweet pea. im really sorry i've made you upset.

I closed my eyes after reading both of his texts and slowly placed my phone back on my nightstand. I breathed in deeply and rolled over on my side, wanting to fall asleep; wishing Holden weren't on my mind to dream about.

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