3:26 am

s e v e n t e e n

s e v e n t e e n

3:26 am
holden
it's probably not the right time to do this, but i just want to tell you how thankful i am for you. you've become so important to me... and im so glad my drunk self had the courage to talk to you. i can only hope that my sober self would have done the same, but you can never be sure.

3:26 am
holden
im just glad our paths crossed, im so glad we're talking

3:26 am
holden
you make my day so much better, every time we talk

3:26 am
holden
there's nothing about you that i don't like. i love everything about you... i don't know how you've managed to rope me in so quickly, but i am so into you.

3:27 am
holden
YOU ARE SO HOT

3:27 am
holden
i just can't wait to see you :-))

I looked down at my phone through squinted eyes, continuously reading over the texts I had received from Holden while I was asleep.

But the only thought I had was, 'What the fuck?'

My heart was racing and my stomach was tied in knots as I continued to read the texts, over and over. I didn't know how to respond, or if I even should. There had been no warning for this, I couldn't have expected him to say any of those things. And as confused as I was about them... I didn't mind them.

I almost found myself thinking that maybe, just maybe, I really did like him; maybe Ellie had been right this whole time, and this was something I was wanting.

My look of shock slowly started to relax as I let myself smile. It was only a small smile, but as I laid my phone down beside me and continued to think about what this might mean, that little smile grew. I fell back onto my bed and raised my hands to my mouth, hiding the grin that was plastered on my face.

I decided not to text back yet, and to wait until I knew what I wanted to say. I couldn't text him back with something that was simple or wasn't meaningful, I wanted think on it and make sure this was something I was excited about for the long run.

I left my phone on my bed, but I pushed my self up before stepping on the floor. I stretched as I started to walk away from my bed, and I noticed that my smile hadn't left yet. I swayed as I walked to my closet and continued to smile as I happily chose something to wear for the day.

After changing, I made my way to the kitchen and made myself a cup of coffee. I grabbed a banana on my way out and walked back to my room. I sat my coffee down beside my bed on my nightstand, and began to eat as I picked my phone up. I had figured out what I was going to say, but before I could respond, I saw that Holden had texted me.

11:17 am
holden
oh my god, i am so sorry. this is so embarrassing. holy shit. i was trying to text andy last night, i was drunk off my ass and you must have been the last person i had texted. im sorry, quinn, i hope i didn't make your morning hell

After reading the text, my heart sank. I felt myself freeze and I couldn't make up my mind about what I should do. I locked my phone and slowly sat it down, not wanting to look at the texts any longer, and not wanting to think about Holden Fredericks. Sadly, all I could do was think about Holden Fredericks.

I sat my coffee mug on the small nightstand beside my bed and brought my hands up to my face as I thought.

I take everything back. I don't like Holden, I just like the way we talk. If he wants to waste his time on Andy, that's fine with me.