A Dislike For Purple

Chapter 13

I had cried longer than I had anticipated... Maybe I had held things in too long but all while I cried I was alone and away from kilgrave. His goons had put the bookshelf back together for the second time and I couldn't help but think they'd just have to do it over again.

Something I hadn't thought of was what kilgrave would do to a phone missing it's battery. A phone without its battery was useless but also a battery without a phone is equally as unhelpful. I hadn't seen him break it just relocate it... maybe there was a chance I'd get it back.

I wiped away my tears with the brown sweater's sleeves. They were comforting to my puffy eyes. I pulled myself together the best I could and went into the living room. Kilgrave looked shocked to see me so soon.

"Emma.." he said in a gleeful tone. My check bones lifted into a smile that seemed real.

"I'm better now," I claimed but I was lying.. even to myself. Kilgrave smirked and almost didn't know what to do with himself.

"Dessert?" He asked. Suddenly, I, myself, was caught off guard by his question. My internal instincts kicked in.
"YES!" I spit out as if my lips weren't mine. I betrayed myself.. I betrayed Jessica. I had a genuine happy feeling towards the man who suggested the treat... I was now the monster.

I happily accepted the ice cream. It was chocolate.. my all time favorite. I was being held captive by a lunatic and still accepted the ice cream. I was such a child..

"Are you enjoying the ice cream?" He asked. NO I AM NOT.

"YES! thank you," I said although my thoughts were opposite... Kilgrave had a smile on his face, as if he'd won something. I tried to ignore it but I couldn't ignore the fact that he was getting closer. He had grabbed a bowl of ice cream and sat down not even a foot from me. The TV kicked on and we sat like that for a long time. I looked over and just barely saw the phone in his pocket.. my next thought killed my insides. I took a mental deep breath and slid over. I was now shoulder to shoulder with him. He looked very surprised for a second and a little uneasy. It took him a moment to acclimate then I slowly tilted my head and placed it on his shoulder. He smiled and placed his arm around me. I carefully reached into his pocket and grabbed the phone. I slowly pulled it from his pocket and then stopped. Where was I gonna put it. Thinking on my feet, I drove it into the couch. I accidentally bumped him in the side! His arm immediately receded from me and he jumped up.

"What are you doing?!" He questioned. I tried to remain calm but I was gonna get caught.

"Uh. Nothing!" I stuttered.

"Check her," he commanded and they did. They patted me head to toe while kilgrave checked his own pocket realizing the phone wasn't there any longer. He turned to me angrily. "Where is it!" He yelled, spit flew from his mouth. I remained silent. "Check the couch you idiots!" He demanded and the men did. "I knew you couldn't love me," he said frustrated waiting for the men to find the phone. The man pulled the phone from the couch and handed to kilgrave. "But you will," he said nicer. But he was wrong, I wouldn't love him, especially if I was a captive. I remained silent, nothing I wanted to say would help me. Kilgrave took the phone over into the kitchen, put the phone into the sink and turned on the garbage disposal! My heart sunk in my chest as the phone was shredded to pieces...

"I'm sorry," my voice croaked. I couldn't act tough, I tried but my body shook with fear.

"Go to your room!" He shouted.

"Okay," I complied. I was gonna get out of this but only if I listened. I walked into my room and shut the door softly. I quickly went to the window and searched for Jessica. I scanned the streets and even building tops but Jessica Jones had left me here with the monster.

I tried not to let my mind put me in a dark place, that was the first thing that happened before people gave up or in to the situation.

I climbed into bed and sat there for awhile. My legs folded and my arms through them. I kinda rocked forwards and backwards. Slowly but indefinitely, the sun was starting to rise. It's blinding yellow heat came into the room in rays of small rays of sunshine. One of the rays grabbed my hand and held it for awhile. It was almost as if the universe told me things were gonna be okay.

Knock! Knock! Two quick knocks on the door startled me. Then the door crept open as I held my position. I swayed less.

"Good morning," he said as if he had been saying it all my life. Like he knew me at all. "How did you sleep?" I completely stopped swaying.

"Not at all, actually," I responded in a kind way. He frowned.

"Well.. why not?" He questioned. I kept my kinda manor 

"Maybe the ice-cream?" I suggested. He nodded skeptically. I had to live through this anyway I can... Even if it was to play to this man's delusions. I suddenly question where this would land me... home.. hopefully.

"Well. Breakfast I'd ready. Come eat," he suggested. I started to get up as he walked into the kitchen.

I came and sat at the table across from kilgrave. Eggs, bacon and toast were on the table. The rays of sunshine faded as a large cloud floated above our heads. The rain suddenly felt a bit denser.

"A storm is coming," I said before taking a bite of toast. Kilgrave looked up through the glass ceiling.

"Interesting," he said uninterested. I frowned at his statement.

"It is interesting," I claimed, catching his eye. He looked almost caught off guard as his vision reached mine.

"How Come?" He asked. I was thrown off for a moment, but the look on his face, I thought he'd say something a little rude.

"Well..." I scrabbled for a reason why. "Rain waters the plants," I said quickly feeling a little smart to think of that.

"Hmm," he said simply.

"And when they water the plants, they make flowers bloom," I said. "Flowers are beautiful... the dew in the morning is always so fresh," I kept listing reasons. The more I thought about it, I was seeing life differently.

"I never paid much attention to nature," he said bitterly.

"Well you should start! You're missing so much," I said, kilgrave sat up in his chair.

"Like what?" He asked curiously.

"Like... the stars in the sky, flowers, sun sets, sun rises, the smell of fresh air in a forrest, camping around a fire," as I began to list I felt myself imaging all the wonderful things and I think kilgrave did too. A small smile wave over his face.

"And, have you experienced all of those?" He asked and I kinda felt sad for a moment.

"Unfortunately, I haven't. Well, I mean I've seen the sun and flowers but never the full experience of star gazing or camping," I confessed.

"Why not?" He almost sounded offended.

"Never had the time or resources. I only just escaped with my life some months back," I said. Kilgrave went to question what I meant when a guard came into the room.

"Sorry to interrupt sir but we have what you asked for," the guard approached and put an envelope in his hands.

"What is it?" I asked. He quickly concealed it into his suit jacket.

"Business. But continue about this camping trip," he said changing the subject.

"Well, I've always wanted to go. Set up a couple tents, sit around a fire and eat s'mores. Then while the fire is dying out, lay down and look up at the stars," as I spoke I was caught up in a moment. I snapped out of it. "Eh. It just sounds cool I guess," I said playing off how excited I just was.

"It sounds cool... would you want to go camping- with me?" He asked. My heart sunk in my chest, I desperately wanted to go camping but.. with him? The pause made him frown, he stood up from his chair and pulled the envelope out of his suit. He then walked into a room. He was in there for awhile. I sat at the table thinking more about his proposal. I wanted to give him a chance but I also wanted Jessica to save me. A rock and a hard place.