Forgive Me --The Fosters--

08 / Honestly

Lena

It's been a few hours since the truth came out and I didn't think we could have Brandon's and Callie's birthday dinner now. I walked over to Stef who was sitting at the bathroom door with her legs against her stomach and her head in her knees. I kneel down and touched her gently. "Lena.." Stef said in such a broken way that it hurt me.

"Aw, babe." I responded as I pulled her into my chest in a hug. "Let's make some sandwiches."

"I ruined everything." Stef whispered when I sat her at the bench and I got some bread out.

 "No, you didn't." I shook my head as I spread some butter on every second slice. "I actually think you just started something that can only get better."

"Lena, I broke my children's trust."

"And you can fix that. It will  just take some time." I replied sternly. "Time that we have."

Brandon

I kept attacking the keyboard until a set of hands stopped me. Those set of hands were Lena's and I shook my hand then kept attacking the board. Lena took my headphones of and took my hands with her tough grip. "Brandon, I know you are angry."

"That is an understatement." I replied angrily. "I am pissed. I am pissed that she lied to me when I asked her if that girl in my memories was real. SHE LIED ABOUT EVERYTHING."

"And she did that to protect you."

" How?" I responded back angrily. "By making me believe I was going crazy!"

"If you got too attached to Callie with all these memories, It will just hurt more and more if you could never meet her."

"Get out." I ordered sternly and Lena put her hands on her lap.

"Mum loves you so much. Please believe me when I tell you she had her reasons."

"I also have my reasons to hate her and resent her." I yelled as I put my headphones on my ears. Lena walked out and closed the door but before she did, she placed a plate of cut up sandwiches silently.

Jude

Mariana and Jesus came in then hugged me then, Mariana went to her room. Jesus and I lied on our beds in silence. A knock at the door and we both ignored it but Lena still opened the door. "Jesus? Jude?" I sighed. Lena sat on my bed. "Hey little one."

"I am not that little anymore." I whispered and Lena laughed a little.

"You are still my baby boy." I sighed as I turned my back and I heard Lena sigh. "I know that she made a mistake. But please, Jude. Make it easier for her. She loves you so much and she is already dealing with Callie's and Brandon's hurt and anger. This hasn't got to do with you and the twins."

"I am allowed to be angry."

"I know but talk to her because she is going to come say good night soon." I nodded and Lena planted a kiss on my forehead. "I love you."

"I love you too."

"And you, Jesus. I hope you were listening too." She stood up and placed two plates of cut up sandwiches. "Be easy on your Mum." She winked then walked out and we both sighed.

"She is right." Jesus responded. "We weren't the ones who should feel the anger."

"Good. I miss Mum already." I said as I sat up and got my home work.

"Homework? Really?"

"Yep. Has to be done." Jesus shook his head.

Callie

A soft knock brought me out of my daydream. "Callie?" I heard Mariana's voice. "Uh. I know we haven't had such a good start but can we start over?" I opened the door and saw how desperate Mariana looked. "Please?" I nodded my head and she sadly smiled at me.

"I have too since you are my sister." I whispered and Mariana nodded. 

"It's really late." Mariana whispered as we walked to the kitchen. "I stayed up to make sure you made it to bed alright. And to make you you at least ate something." She pointed to a plate of sandwiches. "Mum meaning Lena made them earlier." I nodded as I took a quarter and nibbled at it then Mariana got a glass of orange juice out for me. "It's nice to have another girl around here." Mariana whispered. 

"Oh." I said not knowing how to answer to that. It's only been like 24 hours and it is already turning to be the crappiest 24 hours ever..

"How are you dealing with this?" Mariana questioned after the longest, uncomfortable silence.

"Honestly, I don't know." I whispered. "I can't even process this. I don't understand."

"Me neither." Mariana said as she shrugged her shoulders. "We better head to bed."

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