Forever Holding On

Chapter 19

A/N: Next chapter will be the last chapter of book one! Actually crying over here guys ;^; wuuhhhh.....but enjoy this chappy. It's a good one.

I/C

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Two suitcases were almost filled in my room, mostly of clothes in one, and collectable items in the other. Tomorrow I leave again, damn. This was so hard to process, it was safe to say that Lavi, Lavina, Allen, and Komui were all angry with Cross. He deserved it, I still can't believe he's taking me away again. After all that he did to me, and he fed lies to everyone! Telling them that he was training me? And that I needed more training? Those were a bunch of lies.

I stare at the suitcases, sitting on my bed, that was going to be stripped off tomorrow after I leave. I was terrified to leave, I was going to be expecting something new. Who knows, I could come back as I whole different person, nicer, or meaner. I will for a fact defend myself if anyone tries to attack me like how they did before. I don't care if Cross yells at me, or pushes me around. I'm a stronger person now, I can do it. I can.

"Ivory?" Allen peers his head in my doorway, I glance at him and flash a small smile. Allen walks in and looked at the suitcases. "It's empty in here." He says taking a seat in a chair. I nod at that. "Yeah, it is." I say quietly. Allen crossed his arms and looked at me. "How do you feel about tomorrow..." He asks lowering his head, I frown and lower my head as well. "I'm nervous, but I think I can get through it." I tell him, Allen looks at me. "I hope so Ivory, I really hope so." He gets off the chair and kneels in front of me. He puts his hands on my knees. I meet his eyes. "Trust me Allen." I put my hand on his. "I will be fine, I'm strong." I nod.

Allen shifted his hands up to wrap around my waist, he pulled me down and hugged me. I suck in a sharp breathe and take in his scent, I relaxed in his arms and hug him too. This was another thing I truly was going to miss, Allen's hugs, they were so warm, and soft. They were gentle, they called me down so much. We sat there together, enjoying another moment of privacy, a lump formed in my throat, signalling the fact that I was going to cry soon.

"I really am gonna miss you Ivory, everything about you, even your attitude." He chuckled at that, I manage a small laugh. "Your smile, your pretty blue eyes, your hair, half Noah or not Ivory,I love ya." Allen smiled and stroked my hair. I started to choke up, I squeeze the back of his shirt in my hands and grit my teeth, a small sob came from my mouth. Allen moves back and looks at me, he frowns. "Hey, stop that." He brushed his finger along the salty tear. "Don't cry." He dipped his head and kissed my forehead.

I shake my head. "Three years Allen, you could forget about me! You could move on and go with Lenalee or something." I raise my voice a little. Allen's eyes widened. "Wah? Ivory your crazy to think that I would go with Lenalee, she isn't the right one for me." He shakes his head. "That could change in the future..." I mumble. "Ivory..." Allen pulled my shoulders closer and he kissed me quickly. "I won't ever forget about you, ever. No matter how many missions I go on, I will always remember you. Remember..." Allen takes my hand and holds it up, brushing his finger over the ring. "I promise." He smiles.

I sniffed and managed to smile, I wiped away my tears and hug him again. "Good." I say. "Just good." I heave a small sigh, Allen smirks and hugs me tightly. We pull away and he looks me in the eye. "I love you Ivory." He says to me. I blushed at his words, I didn't care what Lavi called it, I really did love Allen. Even at such a young age.

"I love you too Allen." I finally said before kissing him.

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"So, you're done packing now?" Lavi noticed Allen and I walking into the cafeteria. Hand in hand. I give him a nod and we sit across from him and Lavina. Lavi heaved a sigh and put his chin on the table. "I'm gonna miss you kiddo." He looks at me, I smile a little at Lavi and ruffle his hair. "I'll miss you too big brother." I say, Lavina smiles a bit. "What time time do you leave tomorrow?" She looks at me. I chew on my lower lip. "Early, around 8:00." I sigh, Allen looks at them. "So let's all get up early and give Ivory a great big goodbye hug!" He laughs a little.

We all chuckle at that, I push Allen a little. "Oh guys, you don't have to." I laugh. "Scuse me while I go get some dinner." I say and push my self up, I lean down and kiss Allen's cheek. "Uhp!" Allen gasps and holds his cheek. Lavi's eyes widen and he loomed at me, I giggled at Lavi. "Ooooooh Allen got a kiss!" Lavina cooed. Allen blushed and averted his eyes away from them I laugh a bit and go up to order my food.

"Last meal here huh?" Jerry leans on the counter. I heave a sigh and nod. "For now, but don't worry, I'll be sure to savor this one." I smile and order my food. The order was big as usual, it was good to eat Jerry's food again, it was absolutely delicious. When I grab my tray I turn around, my eyes widened as I walks over.

Lavina had Allen in a head lock and Lavi was poking him. "You love her." Lavi cooed. Allen whined. "Stooooop!" He flailed his arms. I put my tray down. "May I ask what you are doing to my boyfriend?" I cross my arms. Lavina quickly released Allen and gave a small whistle, Lavi crossed his arms and looked away. "Nooooothing." He said quickly. I rolled my eyes and sat down, I ruffle Allen's head. I went to start eating my food when I heard Lavi yell a bit.

"Yuu, knock it off!" Lavi covered his head. I narrow my eyes at Kanda, who was picking on Lavi as usual. "How many times did I tell you not to call me that!" Kanda gave a low growl at Lavi. "Kanda your a party pooper." Lavina raised an eyebrow, Kanda hissed a little. "Please stop picking on my brother. We are not five any more." I fold my hands together and keep my gaze on Kanda.

Kanda blankly looks at me. "What are you gonna do about it shorty? You are leaving tomorrow aren't you?" He shot at me. Allen went to stand up. "Ka-" I push Allen's shoulder down, I get up and walk over to Kanda. "How's your face? Does it still hurt from when I smacked you that day? Maybe you deserve another, or maybe something harder, like my hammer." I cross my arms, standing up to Kanda.

Kanda glared down at me, his eyes black. "Tss...." He puts his hand on his face. "Whatever." He turns and walks another way. I close my eyes and smile a bit, Lavina, Allen and Lavi had their mouths wide open. "Did, you just do that?" Allen blinked. I turn around. "Do what?" I tip my head. Lavi blinked. "Stand up to Kanda?! Out of all people and actually make him walk away?" Lavi said shocked.

I came back over and sat down. "Yes I did." I flashed a grin, Lavi whistled and leaned back. "You are tough..." He laughs a bit. I chuckle slightly and went to eat my potatoes, except Allen was munching on them already. "What are you doing?!" I flailed. Allen jumped back and swallowed, he gave a nervous laugh. "I was still hungry." He says, I roll my eyes and move my tray away. "Ass." I smirk. Allen frowned and lowered his head. We start to laugh at Allen, soon Allen joins in with us, we all had spent a good three hours eating, talking, and spending our final moments together, as a team.

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"Goodnight Lavi, goodnight Lavina!" I say to them before they closed their doors to go to sleep. "Night sis!" Lavi waved, Lavina waved as well. "Night Ivory." She smiled and closed her door. I turned to Allen, this was it, our last moment alone together.

"So this is it huh?" Allen leaned against the door. I smile a little, though it hurt alot. "Yeah, it is." I say quietly. Allen shuffled closer and put his hand around my waist. "Will you write to Lavina and I too?" He questioned tipping his head. I give a small laugh. "Of course I will, I my not reply right away, but I will do my best to write to all of you." I say. Allen smiled and hugged me. "I'm not gonna be able to sleep tonight." He admitted to me. I frown slightly and sigh. "I know...neither will I." I say and slide down the wall. Allen sits with me and puts his arm around me.

"I'm still shocked that you stood up to Kanda." He gives a laugh. I giggle at that. "Well he's a jerk, people ought to start calling Jerkanda." I huff. Allen laughed a little louder at that, I laugh at that too. "I used to call him that sometimes." Allen said after our laughing fest. I chuckle and lean my head on his shoulder, I start to yawn. "Well look who's tired." Allen says quieter.

I sigh slowly and nod. "Laughing, sure makes you tired." I say tiredly, my eyes flutter closed. I try to stay awake, but sleep was taking over me too much. Allen looked at me and smiled, he pressed his lips to my temple and leaned his head on top of mine. Allen was starting to drift off as well, his eyes slowly fluttering closed and sleep taking over him, before he managed to fall asleep with me, I heard him say one thing to me.

"Last night, goodnight."