Forever Holding On

Chapter 14

~1 Month later~

Broken. Skin and bones. Weak.

Those words were the best three words to describe me. One whole month had past, I was surprised yet proud of myself that I could survive on my own, but barely. All I could do was look at my surroundings, moments ago, I had slipped through a couple trees, next thing I knew, I was on a dirt path. I had never been so relieved and happy in my life, the only problem was, where did the road lead to, and which way was I going?

"Sign sign sign, there's gotta be a sign." I say, my voice had grown raspy and low since yesterday, I had not drank any water until now. My vision was somewhat cleared, so I could look around better. I decided to travel down the right side of the dirt road, crossing my fingers, I hoped it took me to the right place.

My skin was burnt, I had gotten a black eye a few days ago from tripping over a hidden rock and falling against a tree, getting a stick to the eye. I had various nicks and cuts down my arms and legs, but I was mostly unharmed. I was probably the luckiest person to be alive, but everyone at the order probably thinks I'm dead, well, they'll gets kick out of me once they see that I'm alive and...somewhat well.

I look around for any signs of the order being near, but I had to luck so far. I run my fingers through my hair, it was greasy and had twigs and leaves in it, I was disgustingly unclean. If only there was a lake around, I could wash myself, but I also had zero energy, I would fall asleep, and then drown. God, I hate thinking of all these depressing thoughts but-

"Oh my god!" I suddenly exclaim, my feet picked up speed when I slap my hands over a sign. "The Black Order is near, enter if you dare." I roll my eyes at the sign but heave a relieved sigh. I chose the right path, that lead me to the right place. I couldn't have been happier. I couldn't run, but I sped walked more down the path, it was night time out, so I kept a close eye out. My heart rate started to speed up, I fought the urge to burst out into tears. I was getting back, I was going to see everyone, my brother, Lavina. Allen.

I blushed.

I put my hands on my cheeks and squeak. I was blushing from Allen again, but I couldn't help it, butterflies built inside my stomach by the thousands. My mouth twitched into a bright smile. God, I couldn't remember the last time I smiled for anyone, the only person I ever smiled over was....

For Lavi.

My smile dies down, Lavi. I forgot that he was mad at me, because I'm part Noah. I stop in my tracks, oh god, I really hoped he wasn't still mad. It's been a month for crying out loud, why would he still be mad at me, I could be dead to them. Hell, Lavina could be sitting there, comforting Allen, Lavi could be sitting in his room depressed. Kanda.....well Kanda wouldn't care, but still I was coming back.

I freeze in place again, looking up at the large cliff, oh joy, the cliff from when I first entered. Good thing I could use my hammer, why didn't I do that the first time? I shake my head and take out my hammer, the butterflies came back again, I take a deep breath.

"Extend."

I held onto my hammer tightly as I was shot up in the air, the musty smell of the air came back, but I didn't care. I went to take in a deep breathe, but choked. Ugh, damn musty air. I keep my eyes closed until the right timing, when I opened them. There it was. The Black Order, a tall, castle like building, dark windows, tall doors. It wasn't my version of home, but it was home. To me.

I put my feet on the ground, lowering my hammer. Staying silent, I walk like an android toward the large doors, not remembering what I was about to face. I take a deep breathe, I felt lightheaded, but I rose my hand shakily, giving a knock. My breathes started to come out in quivers, I waited patiently, my eyes watered. Then. The familiar scary figure appeared in my face once again, presenting it's large guns at me. "NAME PLEASE?!" The yelling didn't bother me anymore, all I could do was smile at this point.

"Ivory, Louise, Bookman." I smile faintly, and then, my knees buckled, falling over. I fainted.

***

"How did you not recognize her? It's the second time Komui!"

"Hey! We all thought she was dead remember?!"

I groan as I woke up to fighting, and a beeping noise. I faintly opened one eye, that was my good eye, I saw the blurriness of Komui and Lenalee standing at the end of my bed. "What about Allen, Lavi and Lavina?! Do that even know yet?" Lenalee crossed her arms. Komui let out a huff. "No they don't, Allen is too upset to even leave his room, Lavina doesn't talk to anyone and Lavi...." Komui shakes his head, Lenalee growls. "Yeah don't even finish that Komui." She snapped.

"Why are you guys yelling?" I groan and rub my eye, sitting up slowly. Komui and Lenalee jumped and turned to me. "Ivory! Oh my god are you okay?!" Lenalee rushes to my side, I sigh slowly and cringe. "Well I could be better, I mean, surviving by myself in the forest for a month without anybody with you...it's kinda hard." I say smartly. Lenalee just looks at me. "So, you didn't find your team?" She asks, my heart clenches at the thought. "No, I didn't."

"I already know the story Ivory, you don't have to explain it." Komui piped in as he came on the other side of me. "But, tell me what happened to you." He said. I let out a small sigh. "I uhm, there's nothing really to tell..I just, survived." I shrugged. Komui nodded at that, he looked at Lenalee. Lenalee nodded and walked off. I blink and shake my head slightly.

"How did you get out?" Komui ask me. I sit up more and cringe. "I kept walking, with my head held high. I had to eat little forest animals to survive and purify really small amounts of water. Today, I kept walking, and then I slipped through some trees, and, I made it out. I saw the sign to the Order, so I followed it, and then I remembered passing out." I explain to Komui, my voice cracked from the memories coming to my head. Komui smiles a bit and pats my head slightly. "Well, welcome back Ivory, I'm glad your safe, and I'm sure-"

"Ivory?"

Komui turns his head, I slowly turn my head, that voice filled my ears, my eyes started to water, my blue eyes, met with his gray eyes.

It was Allen.

"A-Allen." I squeak, trying to move. "Whoa, whoa, don't move." Komui calmed me down. My heart rate picked up speed, my breathes came out in heavy long sighs. Allen had dropped his glass on the floor which shattered. Lenalee gasped and backed up. "I thought, I thought..." Allen was trying to speak. I extend my hand. "Allen, I'm alive, I'm here." I say shakily. Allen's lip quivered and he rushed over to me, he blinked and extended his hand to touch the marks on my face,and gently brushed his finger over the bandage on my eye. "I can't believe it," He says breathily. I let out a sigh and my mouth twitched into a small smile. "Believe it, Allen, because I'm happy to see you." I admit.

Allen's eyes watered, and a salty tear dropped onto my cheek. "I'm so relieved." He bends down and I feel him wrap my arms around my bony waist, he hugs me tightly but gently. I warmly hug him back, feeling safe, I start to cry, but happy tears. I whimper a little as I brush my fingers through his hair. "I'm sorry Allen. I'm so sorry for everything." I spill out. Allen stays silent for a bit, he just smiles faintly, he pulls back and holds his hand to my cheek. "Don't be sorry Ivory, your still safe. Your back where you belong." He says quietly to me. I blink and he moves to gently leave a kiss on my cheek. I sit there and squeeze his arm. "Th-Thank you." I nod. Allen smiles and moves off to the side.

"So you weren't lying Lenalee..." Lavi crossed his arms and leaned against the wall.

My heart falls to my stomach again.