Marlboro Lights (Larina) Marina and The Diamonds and Lana Del Rey

I Would've Murdered You By Now

The next morning I woke up sore. I could barely move my arms and every step felt like my legs were being ripped off. Chris was still asleep, taking up most of the bed, so I decided to go out to the beach.

If I can make it there.

The sun was slowly making it's way up the horizon. It was a beautiful morning and I decided to take this time for myself.

I took out my pack of cigarettes and lit one.

The sand was cool on my feet and the breeze blew lightly. The ocean seemed to stretch for eternity.

I unfolded my towel and plopped onto it. I couldn't make the effort to sit gracefully cause of my poor muscles.

I didn't really want to be in Australia. Chris said that we should get away for a while but I don't know what his definition of "get away" is. He seemed to get away every night back at the house. My idea of getting away was when I was away from the house working or writing music when Chris wasn't there. The music Chris says is "pointless bullshit" and that I was wasting my time even attempting. However, if I didn't have my music I probably would've offed myself by now.

I lit another cigarette

The sun was getting brighter, it was around 7 AM. Chris usually gets up around 10 so I still have a few hours for myself.

I really wished that I wasn't so alone in this relationship.....or whatever it was. I know I should leave him but who else is gonna love me? I know he can be bad at times but what else am I gonna do? How else am I gonna support myself?

"You know every cigarette brings you closer to death" an accented voice announced behind me.

I turned and saw a familiar long haired brunette standing over me.

"Right now I don't really mind that" I spoke.

"Oh yeah? And why is that?" The girl from Pearls straightened out the towel and sat to the left of me.

"Love hurts" I answered.

"Like I haven't heard that before." She retorted.

I eyed the sand between my toes. "I don't think you'd understand" I mumbled.

"Try me" she responded confidently.

I felt her gaze on me. I couldn't bear to tell her that literally love hurts. Even if I felt like I could trust her I don't even know her. I don't even know her name for gods sake!!

"I don't know you though. I don't even know your name!" I exclaimed.

"Well, it's easy to talk to strangers about your problems. And if I was a murderer I would've killed you by now." she explained.

Her reasoning made me skeptical so I just looked out at the ocean. After a few moments I heard her move.

Her hand crossed my vision and grabbed my right hand.

"My name is Marina, it's nice to meet you." I turned to her and all I saw was a big grin on her face.

"Lana, nice to meet you too" I shook Marina's hand and smiled at her.

"Well, now that we have that nasty business out of the way. Let's get some breakfast. I'm absolutely starved." She got up and pulled me to my feet.

"Woah, easy. I can barely move" I moaned in pain.

Marina turned around and looked at my feet then up my body observing me. She grabbed the towel and made a motion with her hand for me to follow.

We walked up the beach and onto the docks towards Pearls.