Marlboro Lights (Larina) Marina and The Diamonds and Lana Del Rey

A Life Wthout

"Lana I love you!" He yells from the cop car.

"You don't know love!" she yells back.

Next thing I know I'm waking up in a bed, I don't know where I am till I recognize the thick blankets that marina and I covered ourselves with.

Everything that has happened comes rushing back to me.

Chris beat me.

Marina came.

Ian came.

Ian beat Chris with a bat.

I hear murmurs so I look towards the couch to see Ian and Marina sitting there talking. She hears my movement and comes over to see me.

"How do you feel?" Marina sits on the bed holding my hand.

"Like a million bucks." I say sarcastically.

She rolls her eyes "Well you're ordered to stay in bed for a few days. We don't want you passing out all over town."

"Says who?" I retort.

"Says me." Marina orders.

I laugh but cut off noticing her bruised cheek. "Your face..." I reach up and stroke her cheek.

"This? It's nothing I forgot it was even there." She brushes it off.

How could he hurt her? Anger boils inside of me but then I remember that Chris got arrested.

"What happened to Chris? What are they gonna do to him?" I question.

"They're gonna ship him back to the states then the law there will deal with him."

I can't believe that after 7 years Chris is gone in the blink of an eye. I don't have to deal with his endless demands and abuse. Now we are not even gonna be in the same country.

Marina noticed that my mind is racing. "Lana it's over. It really is." The corners if her lips turn up.

Her words felt so surreal. I looked into her eyes looking for any sign of doubt or fear but there was none, they were filled with sincerity.

I wrap my arms around her neck and pull her towards my body holding her tight. I didn't care about the pain in my ribs and muscles crying out because of my action. All I cared about was this moment. This moment of relief and freedom. This moment that marks the beginning of my new life. A life without Chris. A life without pain and misery. A life of freedom and love.

"Thank you Marina" I murmur into her shoulder.

She hugs me back, rubbing my back. "Anything for you."

*MARINAS POV*

"Lana I'm gonna run to the store with Ian for some groceries." I tell her while I gather my things into my purse.

"Alright, don't take too long" she sweetly smiles at me." How does she manage that smile when she's in a world of pain right now?

I smile back and close the door behind us. We make our way to his car in silence, I can see him stealing glances from the corner of my eye.

We get in and he starts the engine.

"So why did you come to me?" He questions bluntly.

"What?" I knew what he asked but I wanted him to elaborate more.

"Marina we haven't spoken in how many years? You left me them you come running back when you're in trouble."

"Well first, I was not in trouble. My friend was in trouble and if someone didn't stop him he would've hurt her even more and rape her. And second I broke a lamp over his head but then he shoved me against a door and punched me in the face. I couldn't have stopped him myself."

Ian's eyes widen in surprise but doesn't leave the road. "So you come to me?"

"Who else was I supposed to get? You and dad were the only people I had." He winces, remembering the old but raw wound.

"You're right" he admits. "I'm glad you came to me instead of possibly getting hurt even more." The car is silent.

"I just wish you would've come sooner." He adds.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"I miss you Marina. I was in love with you and you never came back."

"I never came back? What made you think I would?" I almost yell.

"I don't know I just assumed-"

"Why didn't you come back to me?" I cut him off.

He stays silent not daring to damage his pride.

"That's what I thought. You never even apologized cause of that fucking ego of yours." He parks the car and I quickly get out making my way to the market.

"Marina, no wait!" He calls out, scrambling out of the car.

I turn around "What?" I spit.

"I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry for betraying you like how I did. I told you I loved you and then turned around and did that to you. But people don't do shit like that to people they love." He looks around searching for more words.

"Well sorry doesn't replace the years I spent alone."

I turn on my heel and stalk away. Why the fuck is he bringing this shit up now? After almost ten years he's still dwelling on it. To be honest I am too but I'm not the one talking about it.

I feel his hand on my shoulder, stopping me from my dramatic exit.

I turn again determined that this was my last time I was gonna talk about it. "Ian. Look. It's all in the past now. Let's drop it. I really appreciate everything you did today, I really really do. Grateful even and I don't know how to repay you back for it. But let's not use this to bring everything back up. So please just leave me alone about it. It's all in the past now and I don't want to go back to all those feelings I had for so long. Let's just get some fucking eggs and move on." I turn again and enter the supermarket with Ian in tow.