Happy New Year, y'all. It's lil ole me, back from the dead. Not literally. Figuratively.
I know I haven't written in months. I know, I know.
It's a new year, and I decided that I need to get back into writing for my own sanity.
Updates, lets see, hmm.. From May 10th, 2017, so much has happened.
I graduated! A bit later than expected, due to credit error, but I pick up my diploma mid-January. I don't know what I want to do next, though. I know I was deadset on culinary school, but after my family kind of restricting me going to my dream school, my dream kind of died. I was thinking of pursuing a career in cosmetology, or writing. Only problem is, I've never really been good with hair, despite loving it, and I can never seem to keep my attention on one piece of writing. I still have some time left to think, though.
I lost a lot of friends. It hurt a lot, but I have to be strong for myself. Lauren, Julianna, Heather, and Julia were a big hurt. They just dropped me. I don't want to go into detail there. I think they might have also turned Savvy against me, which hurts badly as well. Gianna and I barely talk anymore. She seems to be too busy growing up, and left my old ass. I only really talk to Del and Blake anymore, along with Maggie.
I made some new friends, but it seems I've lost those too. We just kinda grew apart. Brin, Cam, Lach, Josh. Aj and I talk sometimes, but not much. Tay and I talk occasionally.
I didn't dress up for Halloween this year, which was sad, seeing as its super important to me. I have been working on my special effects, though! Still scaring people. They're surprisingly realistic and I get reported on instagram a lot. I hope it's not the same person, seeing as I constantly state they aren't real. Oh well.
I've been really into reading again lately, which I'm happy about. It's always made me happy. I've also gotten back into gaming. Fortnite, Cuphead, GTA. I also got Fuzion Frenzy to work, which my mom will be happy about. It was the first game both her and I played, separate times, of course. Rockband too, but I can only play that at my dads. Alyssa and I have been obsessed with horror games, (Outlast and Outlast 2), so I've been stocking up for the next time she comes so we have new ones to play. The Evil Within, The Evil Within 2, and Whistleblower, which is an Outlast DLC.
I've been sleeping on the couch in my basement since the start of this school year, which is starting to kill me because it's so uncomfortable, but I can't sleep in the same room as Kara anymore. It started with her staying up all night, and then blaming me for it. I got out of there so quick, so like, beginning of September.
I had a job, and I loved it, bust unfortunately there was a misunderstanding in the training and I was fired, but apparently I can get my job back in 90 days so I'm going to apply in March. It was at Bass Pro Shops, with Maggie.
I really love the stars. I truly do.
I've found myself wishing for things to be true. Aliens. Werewolves. Vampires, and other creatures. I want to find something that can distract me from this world.
My favorite story of all time is the story of Icarus. I love the story of Icarus.
My grandparents decided that they want to sell our house by next May, so we need to find a new place to live.
There's a boy, too. My boy. No, my man. I love him a lot, despite the fact that he loves to see me bent. He means well, though. We always play argue. We've been together about a month and two weeks, and he's a really amazing guy. He's very patient with me, and understanding. He's been the light in my dark time right now. He is supportive of me growing and bettering myself. He's supported all my decisions, despite some of them being pretty shitty. I'm watching him right now, as I type this. My cutie, watching anime. "World's Okayest Brother." He deserves better than what I can give him, but he doesn't want anything better. He wants me. I don't see what he sees, but I hope one day I will. He listens to my dad jokes, loves my flaws, and doesn't care that I'm not super girly, AKA he isn't disgusted by the fact that I burp like a man.
I love him.
Dori is sick, and she's going to pass soon. I don't want it to come, but I know it is. I know it's going to hurt, and I'm trying to prepare myself. The hard part is, she's not in pain, but she's lost herself. My mom said that she hopes that one day, she will go to sleep and not wake up, so we don't have to put her down. I don't know what I want.
A good friend of mine, Simone, died. December 23rd, 2017. She was in a car accident. The other driver was going 80mph on her side of the road, and struck and killed her. They both passed.
I can't think of any more right now, so I'll post this and if I think of anything I'll mention it in the next post.
