It's been a while since I last wrote.
Things have been, alright, for lack of better words..
A lot has changed.. therapy, speech team, a job, Jacob, Gianna, Don and his sons, Alex, my dad...
For therapy ; I had a giant mental breakdown a while back... around when school started...
I told my mom about how depressed I was, and all my emotinos and feelings...
How I was suicidal...
She didn't know how to react, and we agreed on counseling..
I see Ms. Fedor every Tuesday now...
For speech team ; I joined my school's speech team. I didn't think I'd like it at first, but I love it.
We compete in single and duet events, and I'm in both. DDA and SOS/OO.
Dramatic duet acting and special occasion speaking/original oratory.
It's a lot of fun, and I love my scripts.
I made friends with all the people on the team, and everyone is really nice and understanding.
I see it as a long term thing, me and speech..
A job ; I got a job. AlphaMed Oncology. I scan the records and sort them into the patient's files.
Not the most fun, but its money.
Jacob ; I met a guy, liked him, we hung out for a while, talked, got to know each other.
He asked me out, and I said yes. He's my Spiderman, I'm his Mary Jane. (actual nicknames)
He went through his clingy phase, and it didn't bother me at all. I prefer it, actually.
He was a little abusive, but, it didn't really faze me.
Exactly a week into our relationship, I found out that one of my friends pressured him into asking me out.
(Long story short, I had a group of friends, they called me the counselor, came to me with their problems. They were all mostly in relationships, and decided I needed someone. They took it upon themselves to try and set me up without telling me. Shipping, etc. started, and I got hurt a lot, blahblahblah.)
It hadn't occured to me that's what was going on. We semi-mutally broke up, on the terms that he needed to get to know me better and then we would continue.
It's been about a month and a half since then, and he's gotten really distant. At this point, I'm kind of giving up... He reads the messages, but doesn't respond, and when he does, its one answer responses..
I found out later that he had actually had a girlfriend for two years. It was a game they played, they led people on like that for fun
For Gianna ; This past Sunday, I met up with her for the first time ever. I met her online, and since then she's been my best friend. My wife (nickname we have)
It was kind of awkward at first, but we got passed (past?) that.
It was a lot of fun. We met at a mall in between where we live. (We live about one and a half hours apart)
She had to leave early, and it didn't bother me much. It was fun, and we plan to do it again soon.
For Don and his sons ; He's really getting on my nerves. My mom is kind of favoring him over my sister and I. In the car, he's always got the window down, and I ask him to put it up, and he does, but puts it back down.
"Don, it's like 25 degrees outside, can you put the window up?"
"Kiley, Don needs the wind on him to relax."
Oh, okay, so your children freezing and getting sick isn't as bad as him relaxing on a ten minute car ride.
His sons are over a lot, and I didn't mind because they're really cool, but I was making cookies the other night, and went to bed to let them cool. I woke up and found out that one of them had eaten the rest of the supplies for the cookies. (M&Ms, icing, raw cookie dough)
It's really annoying having them eat all the stuff, and always being in the car, and my mom being late to pick me up because she's picking him up, and being in second to them.
For Alex ; I really miss him.. a lot.. I don't know where he is, or what he's doing..makes me sad... I want my best friend back.
Where did you go, Alex?
For my dad ; I met his girlfriend, I don't like her. She's annoying and tries to change me.
I never liked her. Ever.
Kiley, wear pink. But I'm wearing the same thing as my dad.
You should curl your hair. It's not long enough to be curled.
Put your hair in a pony tail! It's too short.
Wear leggings, those are popular these days. I'm not comfortable in them.
Stop dyeing your hair! It's my hair, not yours.
Maybe you should wear a dress every once in a while. How about no.
You're always on your phone! You never talk to me! Sorry I'd rather read than watch you try on bras.
There's a lot more, this is just what I could come up with on limited time. School ends in 16 minutes, and I have speech today.
Hopefully there's something good for dinner..
I'm really hungry today..
