It's been how 4 years since I came visit Manila. I followed my friends' advise to leave the country for a while. Move on and live happy. And I think, I did. I didn't have any relationship back in the U.S. I really spent those years being with my friends, gaining myself worth, and regaining strength to go back here. Actually I won't be able to go back if not for my friend's wedding this week. Clarisse's Wedding. She already informed me that Donny will be here too because she invited him. I said it's fine. They were friends since high school tho. So yeah. Here goes nothing. I'm back to my condo.
"Wow, what a mess." I exclaimed seeing my old apartment.
"Welcome baaack, girl!!" Nell greeted me.
I laughed as I saw her cleaning.
"I'm so sorry for the mess. I was cleaning your room and you know... removing the old memories. Cla and I redecorated it too. Para fresh na fresh para sayo!!" She said.
"Thank you!! You really didn't have to." I said and hugged her.
"UYYY ANG BAHO!!" She exclaimed as she immediately break the hug.
"Oo nga e. Maligo ka na nga!" I joked her.
HAHAHA Ang sama ng mukha ni Nell.
@TashaGreen: Feels good to be back!
@TASHAFAM: OMG ATE TASH!! We want to see you po!!
@TASHDON: M&G M&G M&G HEHE
@TASHLERS: YAHOOO YOU'RE BACCCKKK
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"She's back, Dons. You ready to see her?" Sunny asked.
Yeap, Sunny. After what happened, we remained friends. She actually just came back from States for her treatments. She's here to come to the wedding with me. I don't know what should I feel... Last time I received a news from her, she was seeing someone new.
"I don't know Sunny. I'm scared. Can I just pretend not to know she's not here?" I said. Sunny looked surprised.
"Dons you've waited for her for four years, ngayon ka ba pa susuko? Talaga ba?" She asked again.
"I know... I'm scared to see her. I really don't know how to face her again after everything that has happened." I answered.
"Kung tayo nga nagkaroon ng chance to be friends again e. Kayo pa ba?" She said encouraging me.
"We will just have to see, Sunny." I said.
Sunny and I went out for dinner with our old Myx friends. We both dropped Myx already and went with different directions for our career. I'm more focused on my music and acting career. As we are arriving to the venue, I saw an unfamiliar back. Is that her? Am I really going to see her now? Please... not now. Everyone looked at me and they are all smiling. They greeted us and this girl who's still facing here back against me is rude. Hindi ba niya alam na babati rin siya? Until she faced me slowly.. I felt scared. FUUUDGE WHO IS SHE???
"Hey, this is Andrea. My girlfriend" Alex introduced.
I heavily sighed in relief.
"Oh hey Andrea." I greeted her.
"Hi Donny. So sorry wasn't able to greet you a while back, I was on the phone." She said.
"Oh. It's all good. Nice to know that our Alex can get himself a girlfriend." I joked and Alex nudged my side.
"Bro, ano ka ba. I'm a changed man." He said. I laughed.
"I hope so. Ingat Andrea!" I teased.
"Nako Donny if only you know.." Andrea added up and laughed.
Alex frowned. Though Andrea hugged her.
"Oy ano ba kayo. Allergic si Donny sa couples no. Alis alis!!" Jairus said. We all laughed.
The dinner went great with all of us catching up and laughing. We took photos and videos of us.
@MYXPH: Our old VJs reunion! *insert photo here*
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It hurts knowing that she's here but she doesn't want to see me. Lol, OA mo Donny.. you haven't tried talking pa nga e. Ayaw ka na kagad makita? Sus. Don't give up Donny. You waited for 4 years. Now that she's back, this is your chance. I could still rememeber going after her to California so that we can talk but she didn't want too. I was faced by one of her friends and told me to give you your space. I just never thought that it would last for four years. We are now breathing the same air. I can't wait to see you, Anastasia. I want to see you. I miss you.
FLASHBACK
"Donny, give her time. Hindi naman madali yung pagalis niya e." Clarisse said.
"I know.. but the more that I wait, the more that I lost her." I said.
"Donny, you already did." Clarisse said with full of sympathy.
"I don't want to hold on to that "I already lost her" phrase. I still want her in my life. I need her in my life..." I said as tears start to pour down.
"I'm so sorry Dons. Just give her time. I know you guys can talk this out.." She said.
End of Flashback
What am I to do now? Shall I text her? Lol. Blocked nga pala ako. Think of ways, Donny.
7 Direct Messages Received
TashaGreen: Hey Donny. I'm probably drunk right now. It's been 4 years huh? It's been 4 years and you are still here on my mind. I think a lot has changed. A LOT. Please tell me how to move on from you Donny. Because it freaking hurts. Like I'm paralyzed. I'm stuck on that same scene... Entering that room, full of anxiety, until I was proven right... Something was going on. Why did you do this to me, Donny? Was I not enough? Am I not enough? Hindi pa ba sapat lahat ng suporta, sakripisyo, oras, at pagmamahal ko Donny? Why am I always the second? Nauna na lahat... Hanggang pangalawa na lang ako sayo Donny. Bakit ganun?
Fuck. I shouldn't even messaging you. BUT.
I miss you.
I love you so much Donny. It hurts.
Ayoko na, Donny.
Tapusin mo na yung pain, please...
Can I be your only one priority? Please...
Donny.
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I was left dumbfounded reading those messages. Is she drunk? How can I call her? Hm.. She's probably with Nell. I'll call Nell.
"Hey Nell, I was wondering where you guys at. I received bunch of messages from Tash. Is she okay?" I asked.
"Oh Dons, she really is dead ass drunk. We're here at the pool club. I'm so sorry. Was she disturbing you?" She asked.
"No, its fine. I'll go there. I'll help you guys sort things out." I suggested.
"No Donny. I don't think that's a good idea. I can take her home. Besides I didn't drink. I can drive." She answered.
"Please just this once. She doesn't need to know. She's drunk." I pleaded.
"Hay.. Fine. Go here na. It's getting late." She said and sighed.
I went there immediately and I saw her dancing full of liquor influence. I walked slowly to her while Nell greeted me with a smile.
"O, Donny. You're here. I never thought you'll come and see me. So do you have an answer?" She asked. Nell was surprised and either was I.
"Let's head home na, Donny. She's really drunk." Nell suggested. I just nodded and brought them home.
