DISCLAMER:THIS CHAPTER MENTIONS MENTAL ILLNESS AND I AM IN NO WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM TRYING TO ROMANTICIZE ANY MENTAL ILNESS. IF YOU ARE SUFFERING FROM ANY MENTAL ILLNESS DON'T HESITATE TO TELL SOMONE AND TRY TO GET HELP. I LOVE ALL OF YOU GREATLY. IF YOU ARE HAVING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS CALL THE SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE. JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED AND PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU AND EVERYONE DESERVES TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE THAT SHE/HIM/THEY CAN ENJOY. SO AGAIN I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT ALL OF YOU AND IF YOU HAVE BECOME DEPPRESSED AND HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT COMMITINF SUICIDE CALL THE SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE AND TALK TO SOMONE. IT IS IN MY BEST INTEREST FOR ALL OF YOU TO HAVE A LIFE YOU CAN ENJOY
SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE: 1-800-273-8255
I've been hiding behind a fake smile for to long. Finn is not at fualt for this no one is. My mental health has spiraled insanely out of control. I'm to far in to try and call somone. It's hard to eat sometimes. I cant sleep. All I think about is how much of a burden I am. The absence of happines and mental stability in my life could be compared to the sum of 0x0. Whoever finds me I am immensely sorry for most likely traumatizing you with this experience. I just want all of my family, even my mother and Finn and my friends and everyone I've ever loved romantically and platonically that I will remember you. No one is at fault for this but me. I am the one who chose to commit suicide. And to all the news articles who get ahold of this go ahead and lose all respect for me and publish this and write a whole article about it. It's not like I deserved any respect or 'fame' or any of the amazing people in my life. I was a burden to everybody in my life, Layla's heartbreak started with her wanting a break from drama that I caused. Wyatt has declined so many auditions just so he'll have the time to see me, so has all of the cast. I am a burden to their greatly deserved success. I appreciate the life I had, but there was much more pain than beauty or grace. So I have made the decision to cut it short. I hope you can understand that I am trying to do what's best for all of the people in my life. I am simply getting rid of a burden
Much love,
Cora Mayfield Lilith
I just want to say i love all of you so much and if you're going through something don't hesitate to tell somone or get help
