ACOTAR and ToG Talk

Insanity

Honestly sometimes I think I am going insane but that's not the reason why it's called insanity.

In ACOMAF Tamlin wanted to just ignore Feyre's powers that she got from all the High Lords. He just wanted to pretend that they were never there in the first place and forget about it. But there is a slight flaw in this. Remember in the attic how Rhys explained how he has to be continuously using magic to work off the strain of power or it will just build up and make him insane. Wellllll if Rhys didn't come in at the time he did and saved Feyre and taught her how to use her powers than Feyre would literally go insane. And especially with all that power that she has from the High Lords she would be like a ticking bomb waiting to go off. Tamlin literally ignores this and just says that she doesn't need to learn how to use her powers is literally driving Feyre insane. This is another reason why we hate Tamlin and why we love Rhys so much more. Rhys helped Feyre be physically okay and mentally sane in ACOTAR, and he did it again in ACOMAF.

Ok, sorry that this is the second post of the day but I need to get this off my chest. This is kinda personal so if you want to you can just scroll on I don't care I just need to get it off my chest and I really can't talk about this to my family.

So a lot has been happening for the past few months. So my parents got divorced like 8 years ago, and then my mom got remarried and all that. But along then I would always go visit my dad and it would just be me and him no one else. My sister doesn't like him so she doesn't come visit so I'm so used to it being just us. 3 years ago he got remarried to my step mom, and don't get me wrong she's great but I miss it with just being my dad. Like every time I ask to do things it's always my step moms final decision if we do it or not. And she's always working and so she was always tired. And now she is pregnant. She is due any day now and my dad called me today saying that they were in the hospital and my baby brother should be here tomorrow. Now to be honest I'm not very excited to have another sibling. I already have five and that is enough for me and I'm always stressed about school and I don't want to be worrying about a baby too. Like every time I'm over at my dads they are always taking naps and everything and when the baby comes they are all going to be cranky. And my dad said that when she has the baby my mom said that she would take my sister and I to the hospital but I don't want to! And especially that I have exams this week and next week I'm getting a crap ton of homework and I need to get a good amount of sleep too. Now this weekend is his weekend. And my step moms parents are coming for three freakin months. Now my step mom is from South America, so when her family comes I have no idea what to do because they barely speak any English and I don't know what to do because I don't speak any Spanish so like I can't communicate with them. And so I'm worried that this weekend is going to be hectic with the baby and everything and I'm not going to get any sleep and I have exams so I think I decided that I'll spend Friday night with them but if it doesn't go good then I'll come back to my moms. Idk I just don't like the idea of having a new sibling and everything. Especially when I'm almost 15 years older than him and my sister is about to turn 18 in a few months, so like later on if I take the kid anywhere people are going to think I'm a teen mom! So ya that's why I've been just eh all the time, too many things happening.

I'm really sorry guys about all that^^ but I just needed to let it all out because obviously I can't say any of that to my family because then they would get mad at me or whatever and this is a safe place so really sorry about that. And plus I told you you could skip it because it would be personal.

On the bright side I started Six of Crows, and I'm on chapter 2 and I have to say from what I've read Inej reminds me a lot of Nesryn. That was just my first impression of her tho.