Perspectives

Chapter 16 - I'd Love To Get My Heart Broken By Her

Aaron's P.O.V

I watched as Rachel slipped from my hands. I was a coward, not fighting for her and the worse part is she doesn't know the truth.

She ripped me to shreds, broke my heart like she did all those years ago but still I found my way back to her. I couldn't let her go but I might have lost her forever.

No matter how many times she hurt me, even the universe was crying out, I'd always love to get my heart broken by her. Again and again

This time it was different. She had lost hope in me. The cold stare I got and the funny, loving Rachel, Kaden got.

To say I was jealous was kind of an understatement. No one gets my darling except me.

Yes world, Aaron Usher declares he is jealous of Kaden Murphy.

"Aary" Austin opens the door of my room, throwing himself on my bed and ruffling my hair. Austin was my older brother, the bad boy type

"What do you want?" I look up from my biology textbook

"Sara is calling you"

"Get out"

"Talk to her dude. I don't even understand why you are ignoring her?"

"I just am, okay. Now leave me alone." He sighs and finds his way out the door.

Hours later, I shut the textbook and drag myself to the kitchen. I was hungry, I took out the first thing I saw in the fridge and heat it up. It was daal from our neighbors, surprisingly it was good.

"Aaron, can we talk?" Sara gets up from the sofa as I sit down at the dining table

"No, leave me alone"

"I was doing what was right for you. You're my brother, I can't see you hurt." She pleads, sitting beside me. Her hand touches the sleeve of my shirt as I pull it back.

"I'm not a kid, I can look after myself and I don't need you butting in my life. Thanks to you, she hates me."

"Good, you can move on. I don't see the big deal about her" she rolls her eyes. I hate my sister sometimes. She couldn't see the things I saw.

"That's because you see things as black and white" I reply "our imperfections are what make us unique."

"You're still hopelessly in love with her"

Yes, I am

***

"Aaron, are you paying attention?" Cain nudge me as he talks about something. I wasn't paying attention. My eyes were on Rachel as she chatted with her friends

"Aaron" Anthony grins as he stands before me. He was a bit weird for my liking

"What do you want?"

"Haven't you heard, Kaden asked out Rachel. They make a cute couple don't you think?" He points to Rachel

"WHAT!! I mean I don't care, why are you telling me?"

"I thought you should just know" He shrugs

"Thanks" I nod. He wanders off, annoying someone else but his words played in my head.

Was it true?

Did Kaden actually ask her out?

I need info. No way would she tell me so I had an idea. My good friend Cain became useful "Cain, friend, mate." I pat both his shoulders, smirking

"What do you want?" He sighs

"Go to Rachel and find out if her date is true"

"Dude, just tell you are in love with her, save me the trouble"

"Please"

"No"

"Please"

"No"

"Please, I'll owe you one"

"Fine" He rolls his eyes, shoving his hand into his pocket and walking towards them. I eagerly watch from behind.

God, I need help

"It's true," Cain says once he's back

"Well, where, when?"

"I don't know. I didn't ask, you told me to find out if it was true" He falls onto the table, falling asleep. 

"Ugh, Cain. You're an idiot" What was the point of that if he told me it's true. Cain makes the worst wingman

I'll never know...

But...

I have to...

I approach Isaac, he was Kaden's friends and he seemed okay. "Hey, what do you know about Kaden's date?"

"Nothing much, why?" He looks up from his phone, examining my face. Yeah, Aaron Usher is helpless

"Cain wants to know on behalf of Rachel's brother. You know how brothers are" I smile

"Okay, it's on Friday at 7 and they are going to dinner" He informs

Friday at 7, I'll be there.

***

After school, I headed to Mae's place. She was an only child and her parents were hardly home so we had the place to ourselves.

I lied on her bed, flickering through her Vogue magazine as she stares at herself in the mirror, brushing her hair

"So how about I take you on a date on Friday at 7?" I ask, looking at her from the corner of my eyes

"Seriously" There is a tone of shock in her voice.

"Yeah, why not" I get up from her bed and kiss her cheek

"Okay" she smiles

Mae was something if I can put it like that. She could be clingy and attention-seeking and also a bitch sometimes but she was loyal. She would never cheat on me and she has been with me through everything; there was a reason I was dating her, not just for the sake of it

Sometimes, I think I am selfish, she deserves someone better than me.

Was I selfish?

But why did it feel right?

When it came to Rachel, the wrong thing felt right...

Always...