Awful Things ☆ LiL PEEP

☆ chapter three ☆

"Watch me fall, from these castle walls. I'll stand tall. Baby, watch me ball, call after call. Walk around the mall, I'll cop it all, castle halls."
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"and you're bexey swan. the rap guy. how do you know me?" I questioned but out loud this time.

"I follow your mum and dad on Instagram. their works are incredible. I visited one of their galleries when I first came here." I thought about his statement for a moment. the whole reason he came here was because of his friend, lil peep.

lil peep is possibly one of my most all-time favorite rappers—his music really made me feel like someone else understands me. I didn't want to seem over the top and rude by asking bexey about peep in fear of sounding rude, so I decided to keep my mouth shut.

"wow, that's actually kind of cool," I stated, looking around the store and avoiding eye contact with someone who was responsible for a lot of my inspiration. most people would probably tell that person in their life what they've done for them, but I'm too awestruck currently to say much of anything.

"yuh," he replied with his English accent. "so, what's it like having them as parents? they must be so cool in real life... sorry to gush, I'm just a fan." bexey swan was a fan of my parents. MY PARENTS!

"um, they're great. very relaxed, ya know?" he nodded and smirked, brushing a strand of faded blue hair out of his face. I smiled back at him.

"that's cool, man. uh," he paused and looked around for a moment. "are you a fan? you know, of me?" I nodded quickly, the smile still on my face. I can't believe he's actually taking the time to talk to me right now.

"seriously, I've been following you for a while now."

"that's cool, Evelyn woods is following me." I shrugged. if it was such an achievement, why doesn't he follow me back? almost as if he knew what I was thinking, he spoke up.

"I didn't realize you were following me, otherwise I would have followed you back. sorry about that," I just shook my head and smiled. there was a small pause, "hey, would you maybe wanna go and get something to eat over at that pretzel place?" I nodded and followed him out of the store. the cashier gave me a dirty look, probably bothered that I didn't buy anything after standing in there for nearly twenty minutes.

"so, what were you up to today before I interrupted you?" bexey joked.

"well, honestly nothing. I only came here because my parents asked me to."

"they asked you to come to the mall?" he questioned.

"well, it's kind of embarrassing," I grumbled.

"I've heard some pretty embarrassing things. I'm sure it cant be that bad." I laughed a little louder than I had expected to and he just smiled back at me.

"fine, they forced me to come here to try and meet someone. to make a friend, basically,"I admitted with defeat. a part of me felt like I shouldn't be spilling my guts to a stranger, but the other part of me felt like I really already knew him—in a way.

"well, consider yourself friended. I'm actually here with some of the other guys—ya know, from GBC?" my heart almost burst out of my chest. Is HE HERE WITH GBC? AND HE'S MY FRIEND NOW? I nodded quickly, staying silent but from the look on his face, I think he could tell I was excited.

"like, all of GBC?" I questioned, trying to prepare myself for what was to come. he shook his head no.

"just peep, Tracy and Wicca. I'm sure they'll adore you—and peep already knows about you, I've shown him your parents work like a billion times." I somewhat internally cringed, because I feel like people only know me because of my parents. but if that honestly helps me meet some of gothboiclique today, I'll take it.

although my Xanax had kicked in a few minutes before bexey interrupted my staring contest with the wall of t-shirts, I was really beginning to feel the effects of it now. I was moving a little slower, and my responses weren't as quick. I tried not to let that interfere with what was about to be the best moment of my life, though.

we finally reached the food court, and my eyes landed on the colorful looking lads sitting at a table near 'pretzel mania.' I almost couldn't believe it. lil peep, lil Tracy and Wicca phase are less than ten feet away from me, and bexey swan has declared himself as my friend.

how did a day that I thought was going to be so shitty, lead me to this?

I'd have to thank my parents when I got home.

"yo, peep!" bexey called, and I saw the heavily tattooed man turn to face us and his eyes landed on me immediately. bex and I finally reached the table, and the way peep reacted to me was priceless.

"she's so much hotter in real life," he mumbled, eyes wide.

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