Awful Things ☆ LiL PEEP

☆ chapter four ☆

"I had no one by my side, 'til this pretty young white bitch hopped up in my ride.
Took her to the crib and I show her how I die, every night, then I wake up and I'm still fuckin' high."
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I tried to pretend like I didn't hear his comment. why? because I didn't want to acknowledge the fact that he just said that. should I be uncomfortable? I'm not even sure, honestly.

"Gustav, this is Evelyn. evelyn, this is the lovely Gustav," he turned to the other two men who were just sitting there quietly, munching on pretzel bites. "Tracy, Wicca, this is Evelyn. evelyn, you already know of them." I smiled and stuck my hand out boldly to shake theirs, and Tracy along with Wicca both shook my hand.

I touched lil Tracy and Wicca phase springs eternal, and lil peep called me hot. which—the peep part I'm still dwelling on, because I always imagined him to be more.. oh, I don't know, not as bold? which, I'm not bothered, just slightly weirded out. I've had almost zero interaction besides my parents in the past seventeen years, what can you expect?

gustav looked as if he'd just been dissed because I had ignored him, but I just stayed quiet and let bexey do a little talking for me.

"so, what do you like to do in your spare time besides hanging out with tons of people?" bexey laughed, and I just rolled my eyes at his joke. he pulls a chair out at the table for me to sit down between him and Gustav, and I take the seat, thanking him quietly.

"well, I'm sure this won't come as a surprise. I like to draw a lot."

"what, like anime and stuff?" Tracy questioned, suddenly becoming interested in the conversation.

"yeah, I like to draw comics and stuff like that," I added, then put my hands underneath the table. in my peripheral vision, I saw Gustav clenching his jaw. what the hell is his problem?

tracy and I got into an in-depth conversation about art, designing merch, etc while Wicca, bexey, and Gustav all sat there munching on food, tuning us out I believe.

"for real though, we should link up sometime soon and get some ideas down or something," Tracy suggested and I nodded happily. one of my most favorite rappers is asking me to design his merch. wow. "lemme get your number." he pulled out his phone, and I added my contact as 'Evelyn 😎'

"oh you should let me get that too," bexey added and pulled out his phone, and I added my contact.

"so, what's the plan after this, guys?" Wicca finally spoke up.

"well, I was gonna ask our new friend here to come and maybe hang out at the spot with us—what do you guys think?" bexey addressed the group. I heard a scoff come from my left side, and I realized it was peep.

"what's your problem?" I heard Tracy whisper barely loud enough for anyone to hear, but I just happened to.

"nothing," the two-toned haired man growled, and a part of me became kind of anxious. how could he have such a problem with me and not even know me? was it really because I didn't say anything back to him?

"well, whatever, she's coming whether she—or you guys, like it or not. let's go," bexey stated firmly and stood up from his chair. I internally panicked. what would my parents do?

I grabbed my iPhone 7 and opened the text app to message my mother.

me: met a new friend today. could I possibly hang out with them somewhere besides the mall?

I waited a few moments, and she swiftly replied.

mother: yes, yes yes!! gooo!! I'm so proud of u. be safe, let me or your father know where to pick u up, or if u need anything at all.

I grinned at the text and stood up with bexey, the rest of the guys following suit. we began making our way out of the mall, passing the hot topic that I'll never forget now.

"so where exactly is the spot?" I questioned, mimicking bexey's tone of voice when he previously said it.

"well, peep rents an apartment here in L.A. when he's not staying in London with me." I nodded, but also felt a little strange. Gustav clearly doesn't like me for whatever reason, and now I'm about to go to his apartment?

when our group reached the parking lot, there were a couple of people who recognized the guys and wanted to take pictures with them. one girl with short cropped blonde hair actually knew who I was, and asked me to sign her phone case.

it was surprising, but awesome nonetheless.
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