Far or Near?

Part Sixteen

(That feeling when you wrote two long chapters for this book, thinking you published it but your wifi decided to be a devil and not actually publish nor save it. Help me before i go to rage.)

Emma's POV

*a week later*
It took one day to edit and post the video. Right after that, Hazel called me and screamed on my ear. Literally. I tried to change the subject by teasing her about her YouTube notifications for Collins' channel is on. She ended up realizing what I was doing and continued to rant/fangirl about me and Devan. That was day one. 

The next day, our parents found out and they started to freak out (in a good kind of way) but of course, they started to give us a lecture about what to do and what not to do while we were in a relationship. I never felt this supported since my first day of school. 

Days after that was horrible. 

Hate after hate after hate after hate. From YouTube comments to my Instagram account and to my Twitter. Devan, Collins, and Hazel noticed it and changed the WiFi password so i can no longer access the internet.  Heh. Too late. I already read a bunch of the hate and I don't need more to make me realize what they want to tell me. I won't even go into detail. In YouTube, there's... less painful stuff there. But in IG and Twitter, God. There's so many swear words. So many name calling. And guess what? I ended up believing them. 

So basically I became depressed. 

I started to be less jolly and talkative that i am. Less social and more trapping myself in my room. I don't want to tell Devan. I can't tell him nor anyone. It feels like I'm gonna be a burden to them. Like one of those people told me on my Twitter. No one ever knew about my depression until tonight...

I was in the Key's kitchen. Devan offered me so that we (mostly me) could spend time to forget the hate by staying in their house. Hazel and Collins even agreed. I know it's not only to make me forget but for them (Hazel and Collins) to have alone time. I'm totally okay for my sister to date my boyfriend's brother... well for me i guess. 

Okay so back to the present time. It was 11:45 PM. I woke up for my third nightmare for this week. About the hate, once again. But this time, it was worse. The hate was worse. More... painful. Tears started streaming down my face once again until...

"Princess?" I heard Devan's husky voice all of a sudden, causing me to let out a small scream, a small jump, and a big sound and mess because of the shattering of the glass I was holding. I was about to bend down to pick some of the big glass shards but Devan quickly knew what I was about to do and quickly galloped to me, quickly taking my hands, an basically my whole body away from the shards.

 "D-devan i-i'm sorry." I sobbed in his chest. He softly shushed me while caressing my hair and hugging me close with his other arm. "It's okay... it's gonna be okay, my princess." He whispered to me, making my whole body to relax and for my breathing and crying to calm down again. Everything he does can make me calm down in a snap of a finger. 

After he cleaned up the mess i made (and all the protesting i did that i should have cleaned it) and taking another glass of water for me to drink, we both headed back up to his room. On the way back, though, Mr. and Mrs. Key was half awake and was about to check what happened downstairs since they heard the shatter. I apologized of course, quite a few times actually but they just brushed it off and told us to go back to sleep. 

We both sat on his bed in complete silence. 

"Emma?" He started and i suddenly felt his warm comforting hands crept into my cold ones. "Yeah..?" I mumbled, not looking away from his blue eyes. He took a deep breath first before speaking up. 

Devan's POV
I took a deep breath before speaking up. "Emma... will you be completely honest with me?" I asked her, rubbing her hands with my thumbs. She nodded a quick nod. "Emma are you... depressed?" I said it bluntly. Her eyes widens and her face turned light red. She looked down, trying to prevent me from seeing her but she failed. I lifted her face by chin gently and saw her tearful eyes. Just by those eyes, i already knew the answer. And it broke my heart. 

"Oh Princess..." I mumbled before hugging her tightly. "Why... why didn't you tell me? God, i wish i should have did something when i started feeling like you have it..." I blurted all out. She hugged back and i could hear her silent cries. "I should have been there for you more. I should have comforted you more!" I exclaimed quietly, tears streaming down my face. I sighed and pulled away and cupped her cheeks. "Devan, don't cry nor worry okay? I-it's okay..." She mumbled out, voice cracking in the process and a tear falling. "I know it's not, Emma. I should ha-" Of course she had to cut me out with a kiss.

 Her kiss was soft and passionate and warm. I immediately kissed back and pulled her closer.

I wish that with only a kiss, all the pain of my Princess to disappear. 

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WATTPAD IS CONFUSING ME SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH AND YEAH SO SORRY FOR THE CONFUSION OF CHAPTERS