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Mesmerized

This was the very moment I was waiting for, for a long time I dreamed of holding her hand like this very moment, all the negativity that I felt stood still, and I was calm, just focused on Ley and her warm hand, I just felt like "wow" it was something, something that I know it won't happen again for a very long time, as I started to show signs of me calming down, Ley slowly let go of my hand, I was quite sad when it happened but I knew that was bound to happen "Have you calmed down yet?" she asked as she giggle at me who sat there blankly staring at her, I came to, and replied "ah yeah I guess I'm okay now, thanks" as I scratched my head out of embarrassment

"So what's up" there she goes jumping off the gun right off the bat, I was unprepared to what I was going to answer so I took a second to breathe and relax to clear my thoughts, "oh nothing I just wanted to tell you something that's all" I without a doubt replied with that phrase,

She then leaned closer to me she put her hands on the desk and held her cheeks to support her face and asked "What are you going to ask me anyway?"

Her face was close to mine, I suddenly stopped breathing to think that she'd come closer, her nose almost hitting mine, breathing the same air with this close distance, only an inch of a gap creating a distance between us, I couldn't handle this immense feeling, a feeling of happiness and nervousness swelled up and so I looked on the other direction so I can have a breathing room of myself, again I was speechless and stuttering, "W-well..." I just muttered, she nodded and asked "Yes?"

Me: You see.... Ahmm...
Ley: Hmmm?
Me: I...
Ley: You?

Then suddenly our adviser came in, Ms. Sherly De Rosario, and with that sudden arrival of our adviser, the moment between us was broken, too shy to leave her out in the air I just said "Ahm nothing tell you later, I'll be going back to my seat now" and left her and went back to where I sat, right next to Nix. I was able to breathe again, like deeply breathe in the air, unlike a while ago where Ley leaned so close to me, where I can smell her scent from that tiny closed distance between us, I was nervous breathing around her maybe she'd notice it and freak out, I just sighed all the way down when I sat

"pst" I heard as I let the long lone air out of me, I knew that it was Nix calling me with that "pst" of her and so I looked at her, she then asked "How was it?", "How was what?" I replied

Nix: well you know
Me: hmm?
Nix: you're pretty darn clueless aren't you
Me: well sorry for being "torpe"
Nix: and so you admit it?
Me: admit what exactly?
Nix: that you didn't tell her how you feel about her, again

I then realized my subtle mistake, a chance I blew, a chance that Nix gave to me in order to convey and deliver my feelings, my love to Ley, all that I realized in one moment, and in one second, I blew it all up

"okay class important announcement" the adviser proclaimed as she slowly settled herself in front of the room and slowly organized her things on the teacher's table

And so with that I started sitting properly and faced the adviser, With a loud and clear voice the adviser announced "Alright class next week we will be moving to the room above her beside the other section"

After that announcement, a wave of deafening cheer and roar followed, and I was not one of them who cheered when that announcement was made, I still felt down about what had happened about me not taking that one shot to tell my feelings, suddenly I just felt someone pat my shoulder, and I it was obvious who it was and so did not bothered looking and just listened to the words that were spoken "don't worry there will be a next time" with those words in mind, I truly wished and prayed for a next time

Meanwhile as the talk of the class was the moving of the classroom upstairs, me, Abad and Yang we talking to each other just to pass time, Leo on the other hand was not on sight actually, I didn't notice him in the classroom and so did Abad and Yang. Our topic was just random we would just say anything that comes to mind and just talk about it, I was out of myself because, I was still feeling down on what had happened, so I was a little slow to cope up with what we're doing at the moment, then suddenly, Abad opened up a topic where I might just want to join in the conversation with them "Anyone you like in school guys?" oh I was ready for this one, I slowly got closer to Yang and Abad to show that I'm actually interested on what we're about to talk about, so Abad started questioning Yang on whom she has an interest on, Yang answered a senior student that time, we thought that it was only a senior student then she followed up a sophomore student and a junior, from that point Abad and I knew we had to cut her up so that we could proceed with the topic

And exactly that's just what we did, we stopped Yang from talking about other more guys, I mean honestly she needs to be committed to one person she likes, Abad then raises the question to me, but I smoothly dodged it with the phrase "You first" and so I thought Abad was going to oppose my proposition of him going first to tell us about his personal interest of someone, but surprisingly he took the lead instead and really just opened up his mind to us about that certain someone, he also mentioned that he was excited on moving on the next room, next to the other section's room because his crush was on the other section and so moving next beside them means that Abad will get able to have plenty of chances to see his crush and to talk with his crush. After sometime he finished it all up and then passed me the question

When it was my turn, the energy build up, the hype, that was built inside me suddenly was gone, I felt like answering the question before but now that it's my turn I just felt like meh, before I even get to talk about who I like, our adviser ordered us to clean up and start moving, and so I got away with it and just go with the flow to move towards the new classroom, but before I even got to be outside with my things, Nix grabbed me by the hand and just pulled me "What are you doing and where are you taking me" I asked as she pulled me towards the back of the room, near where Ley was, and when I was near the location of Ley, Nix lets go of my hand and says "Finish the job or I will" from that I knew what she meant, I was like "okay, okay! I'll do something" but I knew that it was harder than it looked like nor did it sound like, and so I went near Ley and just waved back, she smiled back and said Hi, as I was about to say something Leo pops out "dude you have a phone right?" and so I nodded yes due to surprise, "Cool give me your number later okay?" Leo said as he rushed inside the room, and as soon as the conversation with Leo ended I looked towards Ley to say something, but as I looked in her direction, she looked away from me, from that I was devastated and a little bit heart broken, as if she was avoiding me for some reason, I just sighed and started to walk up stairs, I walked up, carefully step by step, I was beside Ley but no conversation took place, I was being poked by Nix from the side signaling that I should talk to Ley, but the thing is I can't because I don't know how and so I just accepted my defeat in that battle and decided to head out to the new classroom, but there was something that made me want to fight for a little bit longer, Ley called out to me "Lee, come here" as I was called I went near her

Me: What's up?
Ley: earlier today, Leo asked you about having a phone right?
Me: yes he did, and in fact I have one
Ley: hmmm
Me: what is it about the phone?
Ley: well I was just thinking that maybe...
Me: ???
Ley: you could give me your number

She smiled as she asked for the number, and my heart stopped again, it skipped a beat, I was happy and suddenly mesmerized by her once again, ahhh finally! Thank you God! I praised Him as I hid my face grinning out of the joy Ley just asked me for my number!

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