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*Inside the classroom doing some lectures*

I Lee Alsief officially declare; that my time stopped and that my heart kind of skipped a beat

I was in a daze, frozen in that single momen

A moment between me and this girl Ley Anne Ruby.

It's not about the fact that she said sorry, but it's about the fact on how she said she was sorry.

Her timid toned voice, sounded so calming it warms your heart, her thin hairs that slowly moved across her face as she looked at me, her pale white skin painted with light rosy cheeks, and her eyes glistened with watery tear drops that resembled gems that sparkled amidst the shadows casted by her hair that seemed covering her face

In that very moment, in that one friggin moment I thought to myself "Crap, she's gorgeous"

I mean really...... Now that I took a closer look at her, Ley Anne Ruby, wasn't just your ordinary girl

She is very beautiful, that moment which I get to see, is irreplaceable, and I thank the Lord that I get to live this very day, to see such a treasure only for my eyes to lay upon

Of course the day dreaming eventually had to stop, I was snapped out of it when the teacher called my attention if I was listening or not, frantic, I made haste in order to cope up with the lecture, it wasn't quite much but I did miss out some of the lectures.

My face turned hot, felt like it was red, and almost as if I was embarrassed.

My heart beating fast and I was already dripping cold sweat, the image of Ley of that moment burned in my memory, and now I wish I could see that moment once again, because you never get to see her like that often, that time when her guard was down and she was just so vulnerable.

I want to hug her, is what I thought, but I knew it wasn't something that I can do.

A beauty like her has a lot of guys flocking around, and how in the world would I ever be able to match her standards

For sure a girl like her wants a guy that can give her everything, and who am I to give such things to her.

I can't give her anything that she might appreciate, I'm not rich and definitely not handsome, how am I able to make her like me, I know that I had to give up 

"Oh no" is what I said to myself, it's a sudden realization but I don't want to make it official yet, but I think, I'm slowly falling for her, gosh, I'm afraid that this might happen, I'm afraid of falling for her, I'm afraid to get rejected, but I must think this through and check myself again if what I'm feeling is true

I started to calm down as I had coped up with the missed lectures, the thoughts going in my head like a storm came to halt

Finally I was able to think straight once more, and I was able to focus on the lecture.

Just as the lesson was about to finish, I felt someone stuck a note on my elbow, it was plainly obvious who it was, though I know she acted as if she didn't do it..... guess who

It was Ley, she was quite fidgety and tried talking with her seatmate Yuuki to make it look like she didn't do it, of course in response I had to look into the note and see what was written

"Are you still mad at me? I said I was sorry :("

That was the content of the note, and of course I'd feel bad if I didn't respond to her message, and so I spared a little time in order for me to write my reply on that piece of paper

I had written "No, I'm not mad, don't worry ^_^" and I folded the note and reached out to the back as I maintained looking forward. I held out my hand for about 3 minutes before the note was taken.

 I sat back and relaxed for a while when suddenly a note was stuck underneath my elbows again

Of course I took the note and read the reply, "Then why aren't you looking at me? Why aren't you talking to me?"

That struck me hard, at first I was having doubts of whether I should face her or not, but by this time you all know what had to happen, that's right I had to choose between facing her or bailing out.

And just like any other cliché character would do, I chose to face her and confront her with everything I got, if I started running now then what good am I, slowly a turned around and looked to face her direction, she was on the head down, and I don't know what am I supposed to do here, she wanted to talk right? But she isn't looking, I don't want to bother her but here I am looking at her not even bothering on tapping her shoulder or how to initiate a conversation

Yuuki Ley's seatmate noticed something was going on and I think she knew right away that I needed to talk to Ley and so Yuuki out of that consideration just tapped Ley's shoulder "Hey Lee wants to talk to you"

I was flustered by the sudden turn of events, my face turned beat red, and before I even knew it, my fight or flight kicked in, as I involuntarily was about to make a run for it, Ley called out to me

"Lee......" of course it caught my attention, and so I faced her 

"I'm sorry" she said as I turned towards her with her chin lying down on the arm chair and her face turned towards me, her eyes that was a little red from the tears she shed. I reached out one arm and ruffled her hair softly and said "it's okay"

Ley: You aren't even talking to me

Me: I'm sorry I just didn't know how to approach you and so I just kept quiet

Ley: Really? You're not mad?

Me: No, just surprise about what had happened a while ago

Ley: Are we okay now?

Me: Yes, we're cool

Ley: Friends?

Me: *giggles* Yes friends

It was such a relief that went well smoothly, from the depressed Ley, she became the cheerful classmate we once had real quick, it's as if there was nothing had happened, she smiled and she went back on to teasing me, but I have to be honest, I was happy but deep down it stung me, and it hurts a little, that we were just mere friends