It was very awkward indeed, an atmosphere of silence and cold stares were just the only things going on between me and this girl who sat behind me, I know that we couldn't keep this up, either one of us would need to break the silence, or else nothing would ever progress in this staring contest. There were two choices lined up in front of me; which I can see clearly visible in my vision, nobody can see it but me; I call this phenomenon, the power of absolute choice.
Think of it as like a video game where you need to choose the necessary action, there would be two choices flashing before you and the event that is happening in front of you, but in my case, it was in real life, two choices flashing before me, hence I decided to call it "absolute choice".
In this little conversation of ours, there were two choices, one was to get back in my head down position on my arm chair and the second one was that I initiate the conversation first. Knowing myself I would definitely go for the first choice, but I can't just let the effort of tapping my shoulder go to waste, and so I had a conflict of myself in choosing between choices one and two
Oh yeah of course because the name implied to it as "ABSOLUTE choice" there is a catch.....
If I don't make a decisive decision quick I'd have... uugghhhhh... headaches and gosh it's so hard to choose between the choices, as I look her in the eyes she was looking kind of impatient, and so nonchalantly I chose the second choice, I thought of what I was going to say
"Hey do you-"
When suddenly she interrupted my speech, the headache disappeared and I was able to think clearly, I was about to ask her if she wanted to ask me something, because she stared at me so intently that it is getting uncomfortable, so she instead asked "What's your name?"
And of course just like any other person, I would respond and answer with my name, which is Lee Alsief, she nodded in somewhat agreement and asked another follow up question
"Where did you attend for school in the previous year?" and of course I'd answer what was my previous school's name, and so before I knew it, it was a series of follow up questions, I'd just answer and she'd just barrage me with one question and another, there were times that she'd react like my answers were kind of weird, and there were times that she'd laugh at my answers leaving me in a state of awe, wonder and confusion
It was a mixed feeling for me, both fun and happiness mixed with a little doubt and awkwardness, it was something so precious yet so mysterious at the same time. Before we knew it, time had passed us by, we were so trapped and engrossed in that little world we had, it's like time felt so slow that moment but in reality time had gone so fast, it was recess time after we had finished that conversation, she said her goodbyes and went with her friends and I was left there sitting still star struck with the conversation that we had.
It was my first time that someone would approach me like that, it was refreshing and at the same time tiring, for an introvert like me, conversing with people drains a lot of my energy, and so I laid back and rested on my chair, I stared on that blank ceiling of ours and just reminisce about that moment the both of us had, as I try to remember every moment, there was one thing I had noticed, her voice felt hollow and her watchful eyes that secretly try to look at some places that is not me, seemed to be empty.
It's as if she was being tormented slowly, and of course I couldn't just tell her that bluntly, and so I kept it to myself and shut my mouth about what I had notice, and so I got my handkerchief and covered my face, laid back and relaxed and started to rest, after a few minutes someone was bugging me and I knew who it was, that method of bugging me is very familiar
And no, it was not the girl who I just spoke with, but it was my cousin Maria
"Heeeey bruh" she waved at she continues to bug me with a matching glee and happiness as she does that to me
"Hey" I just replied without enthusiasm because I was so out of it due to exhaustion, well it was introverted problems. With that I thought that Maria would just leave me be but there was something that caught my attention that lead me to sit on the chair upright and lend all ears to Maria and it was only one question Maria had to ask which resulted me in listening to what she has to say
"Sooooo, who's that girl?" she grinned as if she was onto something, which I don't know lead me to insecurity on what she might want to point out against me, I just replied that it was only a friend and there was nothing going on what so ever, Maria still didn't let that stop her she still pressed on her attack against me.
"She's pretty though, I think you should go for her" she said to me teasingly, I just sighed and took a deep breath and said "Maria listen, girls like her is waaaay beyond my league, and there is no way in hell I'd have a chance"
"You won't know unless you try" Maria said as she rested her head on my arm chair.
I replied "Girls like her, who are pretty, sweet ,and nice, if not 100% then at least 90% most of the time they already are with a significant someone" as I ruffled Maria's head that lied on my arm chair, she seemingly enjoyed it.
After some time she just stared blankly across the other side of the room which then I noticed, and to my curiosity as I was about to look around the other side of the room to find out what Maria was staring at, she devilishly caught my attention by distracting me, almost preventing me from looking at the other side of the room.
Not knowing that it was all part of her devilish ploy, "Ask for her name the next time you meet" she blinks and laughs as she made her way back to her seat with her friends
It left me wondering, what did she mean by that?
"So what's your relationship with Maria?"
I didn't know what or how to react, but shivers just crawled up my spine, and yeah you probably guessed it right, it was the girl from before, I didn't really catch her name back then now did i?
It was awkward in a way that I didn't know what to call her in response to her question and suddenly the natural phenomena that occurs in my life appears once again, the power of absolute choice. It span in my mind that, ah it's that time again, I consider the power as somewhat a checkpoint in my life, I knew I shouldn't screw this one up
The choices were, one to ask for her name, and two was to come up with another topic to disrupt the current topic
It took me a while to answer, but I chose the first option
With all my courage, I mustered every ounce of energy once more in order to initiate a conversation; I said "Before I answer that, can I ask you a question?"
She looked at me like she was wondering, and she asked "What is it?"
"What's your name? I didn't quite ask it yet" I said as I kind of scratched my head due to embarrassment
She somehow grinned or somewhat smiled, it was quite ominous but it was no threat at all, she clears her voice and answers
"It's Ley Anne Ruby"
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RomanceA slice of life and a point of view story of one high school boy who, who seems to have some kind of weird phenomenon within him that makes him makes choices for his own, revolving around his school life and love one
