We Meet Again ver. 1

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JB 'S P.O.V. 

After Mark and Jinyoung went on their 20th date, there has been a question that has been lingering in my mind. The way Jinyoung described his  feelings for Mark was nothing like I'll describe my feelings for Youngjae. Was it because we are going through different things and problems? or is it because the love that I claim to have for Youngjae is not as strong? Do I even love Youngjae? 

We have been together since middle school. He is my first boyfriend, hell he is my first everything. Everything that I have experienced involves Younjae. I know nothing other than him and what we have. 

Do i feel love or is it just comfort. Is it that we have been together for so long that taking the next step is only logical and what it is expected of us. Does Younjae really loves me? 

We rarely fight, argue, disagree.  Since we have know each other for so long, we know everything about each other. We do a lot of things together. We know what the other person will like before the other says it or knows what he will say. We can practically read each other's minds. Is this how couples are..

We have been together for so long, that I no longer feel jealous if someone starts hitting on him. I think that I wouldn't even blink an eye if I see him being too touchy with someone. Do I not feel jealous because I know that he will never leave me or cheat on me; or is it because I feel nothing for him. 

 Like a month ago, we went to a fancy restaurant for our every three to six months date. The food was amazing. we had a pretty good time. When I asked for the bill, the waiter, a tall brunet with a face of a model. Probably 6'1, with a big amount of muscle and a dazzling smile gave it to me with a wink and his number. Younjae witness everything and had no reaction towards it. He just smiled at the guy and we left. we continued our nigh as if it did not happened. 

I asked Mark about what he would do if he were in the same situation. Mark smiled at me and said, "If anyone did that to Jinyoung in front of me I'll smile at them, while smiling and looking directly at their eyes, I 'll grab the number from Jinyoung and hand it back the guy. Ill place one hand on Jinyoung's waits and the other close to his butt and walk out"

Bambam said that he would Kiss Jack right in front of the guy and that Jackson will have to drag him out before he hist the waiter for hitting on his man. 

Younjae did none of that! Is it because he is not one for violence, or it is that he does not care anymore?

I remember that when we were in college and  a guy winked at me. Younjae had seen it and glared at the guy and squished my butt. 

As the years passed, Younjae stopped getting jealous and so did I. We stopped having date night. and our sexual life is close to non existence. He is focused on work and so I am. We do eat lunch together all the time but it feels like we do it because he have done it for so long and its strange it we were to stop. 

Younjae is such a good person and deserves to be happy. I dont think that I am the right person to make him happy any more. 

Maybe I am acting on selfish reasons and breaking up with him because I want to experience knew things and new emotions. But I need to let go and see where my happiness lies. 

With another look around the bedroom, the bedroom that are filled with a lot of memories of what I had with Youngjae,  I walk out with my suitcase in hand. I'll talk to Youngjae latter on today and break things off.

 I'll leave him the house, he fell in love when we first saw it. When I told him that It belonged to use he cried tears of joy. He was very happy to finally have something to come back to everyday and call it home. 

Youngjae's P.O.V

Going up the stairs to my favorite room in the house is hard, knowing that he is not there. Our bedroom. OUR. 

Its funny how things turn out between JB and I. We got together in middle school and have been together ever since. It has always me and him. We have  experienced a lot together. All of our first have been together. 

I knew that things between us was not the same as it was years ago. We were good, more than good back then. I thought that we would for sure get marry a year after graduating from college and then buy a house. Three or more years latter we will adopt and have a happy family that will have their problems at times but over all we will be happy. We were happy and our future was certain. 

Back then breaking up was never in my mind. Back then a world in which we were not together did not existed. Back then everything was simpler and close to perfection. 

But then came the Jackson incident. That really put our relationship in a thin line. During that time we both shed many tears and our hearts broke more than once. Breaking up became a possibility. I thought that we would break up at any moment. We walked in thin glass. But then we over came it. We became strong once again but our relationship was never the same after that. 

We used to have movie night every other day and dates every week. We would make breakfast in bed for the one had has a stressful week. If we both has stressful a week we would go out to eat and do something relaxing. We would celebrate our anniversary. 

But after Jackson, we stopped all that. Affection towards one another began to decrease as the years went by. 

"JB, my only boyfriend. T-thnak you for all the wonderful years by my side and for showing me what a good relationship was like." 

Tears stream down my face as I take down the pictures of us. Each one contains a memory that I hold dear to my heart. 

Tomorrow I'll wake up to am empty house and a broken heart. I'll wake up and continue on as if he was never part of my life. I'll go to work, and have lunch a lone. I haven't had lunch with someone else other than JB since I was 12. 

I don't know if I'll be able live a life without him. But If he is happy with not having me in his life than I guess that I'll gladly take this pain so that he can be happy. 

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