𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄 | 𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢

vii

flashback

i was packing up for our 1 week school trip in jeju, and i was beyond excited.

 its  lovely because im in the same section as hangyeom; my boyfriend.

he has been my boyfriend for 8 months, and we're going well, i think.

he has been off for the past 2 months but since i love him, i didn't care.

--

we arrived at the site, and it was more than beautiful. the views, everything. 

hangyeom and i were holding hands and that was the start of the lovely week.

---- not until the last day of the school trip, he invited me to go to a nearby cafe just by ourselves and i waited.

"hyerin."  a soft voice called for me, and he was here.

but a girl followed her.-- soeun. 

the school's everything. she is the pricipal'sonly child, gets what she wants. she was the best at everything, she was also very warm hearted.

but i was the school's bitch.

and now i got a gist of what's happening.

i just stare at them while they walk to where i was sitting, soeun profusely sweating.

"hi." hangyeom awkwardly sat infront of me but i just smiled at him.

"hi soeun." i smiled at her and she did the same. 

we were in the midst of contemplating who were to talk first but no one did. until i kicked hangyeom hard.

"ow! what was that for?"

"speak." just seeing them sit together made my heart shutter, but seeing them make eye contact makes me even more, even my dignity crush. "could you two just start speaking already?"

they sighed and looked at me, like they've done something wrong.

"look hyerin, first, calm dow--"

"you're telling me to calm down when you haven't told me anything?" i scoffed, not letting my tears fall.

"we need to be together for now."

"what?" i looked at him with tears falling now, waiting for an explanation.

"her dad wants someone else to marry her for financial purposes, and she only had me-- hyerin, im really sorry, but--"

"i got the explanation i need. no buts." 

i saw soeun tug hangyeom's sleeve, whispering.

"she's also.. pregnant.. hyerin. im the dad."

"what the actual fuck song hangyeom?"

"hyerin, no.. of course we needed to have proof. im dumb, i know, but please."

i just stared at him furiously, but with a sense of letting go.

truth to be told, soeun was hangyeom's gal before there was an "us" going on. 

"2 months old." soeun suddenly bolted. 

"2 fucking months old? you're such a shit, hangyeom. you've been keeping all of these for almost 3 months? or who the fucking hell knows how long it was!" 

he hesitated to answer, knowing that he'll only go down.

"i'm fucking done with you, little piece of shit."

before i left, i looked at soeun, "you're a bitch but fucking take care of that baby or else i'll kill you." she nodded as tears fell in her flawless face also.

i left the cafe as a crying mess until someone took a hold of me, which made me look around with his grip then embraced me.

his scent was too familiar.

his warmth was everything i needed.

but we also need to let go,. 

if you're hurting.

"i love you, hyerin."

"don't fucking say that." i pushed him hard, making him go two steps backward. "i already told you we're done, you explained, and there she is."

"but i don't love her, i just needed to help her."

"but you already have a child inside! song hangyeom," i broke down, squatted, while wiping my tears.

"hyerin, im really sorry."

"go back. go to her."

finally, i faced my back to him but heard him mumble something.

"i'll get you back, hyerin. i promise."

then i stopped, and mumbled back.

"no you won't, i promise."

flashback end