All is fair with love and war

when it all comes to past

"im going to stop running after you just to watch you chase, search and look everywhere for me"

            

            My brothers and sisters came to see me they went to go see if they could find my mother and I prayed that they didn’t because I don’t want to see her of all people. But you know the universe works against me because she is right in the door way. When everyone noticed her the talking stopped and we all turned to her.

-          Can you guys let me have a moment with my daughter

They nodded not wanting to speak to her. When the door closed. I looked around the white room that I was in. it was a normal hospital room while walls white sheets. I  ignored her for five minutes and she said.

-          Leila

I kept looking around then decided to ask

-          Who is speaking

-          Really that is not how to talk to your mother.

-          MOTHER!! Where were you

She turned her head around and came towards me

-          Leila baby

-          No, no, no, no, don’t you dare try to sweet talk me now. I was over here as good as dead and you went to go handle buiseness.

She didn’t say anything and I don’t want her too either. It was silent for another ten minutes when she spoke.

-          Look im here

-          And you shall BEGONE.

She got so upset her face turned red.

-          Really Leila you are such a spoiled BRAT im here not everyone could just come see when you are in surgery for five hours,

-          Get out I don’t want you here.

-          Oh now you are being rude and disrespectful I will slap the damn life out of you I mean it stop acting like a brat.

-          Im calling the nurses and getting you kicked out

-          Wow, ill escort myself out. Happy birthday

She set a box down on the edge of the bed and left

………………………

 I have been in the hospital for  two weeks now and I get released today. Michael didn’t come see me not at all but im not his responsibility, everyone was here even my mom because they decide to do a little e celebration. I hadn’t  opened the box yet but I might come around to it. We ate some cake and I was released I had a severe headache and wanted to just sleep. I lost a child and it still hasn’t sunk in its really hard to even think about it no one besides the girls or my dad know about this and I kow that if I told my brother he would be so upset.

I feel fine I just keep having dreams not last night though I hope that they go away I haven’t told anyone about the dreams and I hope that they are gone for good.

-          Hey we are home

-          Please lower your voice

They nodded and helped me out the car. When I got in the house I went straight to my room..  To be honest I know for a fact that, child is Michael’s. He hadn’t called me, visited me, or even tried to check on me that worries me for some reason, it upsets me because Cole came and stayed next to me for awhile for more than hours and he couldn’t even call. Is that what you do to someone you LOVE, my mom and cole had points on him.