All is fair with love and war

i dont want you ANYMORE

“Love is all bull”

I was stuck meaning I froze not knowing what to do my mind is telling me finally an  opportunity to kill this useless man I know that my mind wants to run him over and a little opart of my heart wants to but he has a daughter, if I don’t do it hell think that I want him back that im all in for him  that I cant stop loving him which is ALL TRUE but he isn’t supposed to know or even get the idea of that. I love cole but the path that I was taking with him wasn’t good I don’t want to give anyone a reason to call me out my name or to have anything bad to say about me its about time I let go of him.

                 My foot hit the gas just enough and he stood there he had his eyes wide open wanting to stare dead in mine I wasn’t going to do it I was just taunting him and he stood there as if he really wanted to know. I  hit the gas pedal a little more this time and I saw his pulse jolt from inside the car he was SCARED not that I might hit him that I might NOT love him. It brought pain to my heart buut there is no time for babying him cole is a grown man he makes his own decisions and he decided to hurt me to break me it was HIS choice and im going to make mine. I put my foot on the gas nearing him I looked at him like nigga this is a damn hummer do you really want it hitting you like….. if that’s so you could be bedded in the hospital for days. I stopped right infront of him when avery came out I really want to beat that….

-          What the hell is going on cole

I tensed up a little seeing his daughters smile fade away she was scared and frightened for her dads life she looked at me sadly and I put the car on revese and backed up a little not for cole but for his daughter. Avery glared at me and cole ran his hand thorough his hair and sigh nervously. Its all in act ladies this is what he does DAMN it but to remember I fell for all that damn crying and ‘leila please I love you’ bull crap makes me tense more at myself than at him. I feel so stupid for loving him I feel stupid for standind up for him I feel dumb, retarded, mistreated. I feel lost I feel dumb for believing that  he loved me that he wanted to marry me. He had done this before to many girls and none of them stuck with him except for me and ……… that ratchet blonde looking thing. Im in her league it’s what I stooped so low for I could do better than cole I should find a man that really loves me that really want to be with me … haha who am I kidding  there is not one man on this earth that is capable to LOVE none and that to me is a FACT!

 Avery rolled her eyes and I looked back up for cole he was GONE like he always did that’s what he did best LEAVE! I saw her get in the ferari and then it added up so much for not even wanting to be with her but yet you driving with her. Psh please DEVIL!!!!!!!!

              I sped off angrily to my home.

  Cole P.O.V

                When Leila kept moving the car towards me I was afraid that she meant it that she really hated me. I understand that she needs time and so do I I need to get everything straightened in my life before I bring her in it. Before I had no doubt in the back of my head that she wanted to marry but now its like ‘ she doesn’t want you do you understand what you just did’. I want to ignore anything that ny brain is saying right now.

  The car ride was tensed my daughter was sleeping in the back seat and I figured that’s why Avery hadn’t said anything to me. I finally pulled up to my house and avery went to go put syrena  to bed.i sat on the couch and intertwined my fingers over my head in fusration. I love Leila in all honesty I do I love everything about her but she is giving up ive noticed lately she broke up with me 2 already and although she didn’t say it tonight I know its over.

               I heard footsteps coming and I looked the way of the staires knowing it was avery. I looked away and she came up to me