All is fair with love and war

its all messed up

I ran my hands through my hair I cant want him back im ot suppose to want him back I sigh loudly ang grunt. I threw myself on the couch and put my elbows resting on my knees and buried my face in them. Why does he do this to me? Im not going back to him but im acting like a slut!one minute im with Michael next im letting cole do things to me that he shouldn’t be doing!

Damn it Leila why are you so stupid

Shut it brain

You know that he doesn’t really want you, he just wants the p-

Why you gotta be so mean brain.

I grunted outloud as tears freely fell down my cheeks. I feel like sh** I cant believe I did that to Michael, I feel so disgusted with myself I cant see him anymore I cant call him anymore because me and cole couldn’t just be friends it wasn’t going to work.

                    I got up and went up to my room, Michael was laying back on the bed on his phone.

-          How come you haven’t fallen asleep yet,

He looked up at me and worry passed his eyes, then a smirk ame upon his face like he just had the best idea in the world.

-          What Michael

-          Nothing, um I was waiting for you

-          Were you

-          Umhum

He bit his lip seductively, what is he doing I cant not tonight my head isn’t straight no not now.

-          Michael

-          Yes Leila

-          Don’t seduce me – I said putting my hand over my face.

-          Im not even- he cut himself off and started laughing. Im so confused right now

-          What is so funny

-          Your face expression you look like you just made the biggest mistake in you life

-          Wow Michael really.

-          Come to bed

That sounded so wrong. Okay not wrong in a bad-

Just shut it Leila

Why is my brain so mean all of the sudden?

Because you FINALLY GOT RID OF THE UGLY RATCHET JERK and you are actually thinking of going back to him letting him touch you!

Okay I get it!

                     I looked back up at Michael  who was staring at me. I walked over to the bed and sat down putting one feet under my butt and lifted the other one on the bed.

-          Did the kiss mean anything to you

Why does he have to be so demanding and always wants to know he wont be left in the dark!

-          Ummm Michael I cant-

-          Tell me

He lunged himself to hover over me, his hands pressing on either sides of me.

-          Tell me Leila because that was the best kiss that I ever had

I sigh heavily and opaniced mentally do I tell hi, no, yes, no, yes okay just tell him that