All is fair with love and war

it just hurts

"pain comes in different ways"

I felt pain erupt through my body, I was hurt physically mentally emotionally and couldn’t think straight I felt like someone pulled a rug from under me and slapped me with a brick, I felt like my right eye was stabbed with a fork and my left one with a pen, the pain is different on each part of my body but the emotional damage was done.

-          Leila

Tears sprung from my eyes and I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around me as if to keep me from falling, my chest pounding harder , my breathing getting quicker, I felt myself being lifted up and guided somewhere, my eyes shut tight still trying to avoid the scene .

-          Leila breathe, please relax

He placed me on the bed and turned on the air conditioner, I felt soft lips against my own and it sent chills down my spine

-          Its okay.

I felt myself getting calm and going back to a normal state, I opened my eyes. And found him smiling.

-          You were having a panic attack. I need you to breathe and ill get you some water.

-          Ok

I lifted myself up against the bed board and tears fell freely down my cheeks, the girls came rushing in and Lolo had tears on her face,

-          Are you ok

-          I don’t know

I took a deep breath.

-          I’m so sorry lei

-          It’s not your fault.

-          I can’t believe he did that.

Then it all came back to me, he said he didn’t do it he told me that he didn’t he said that it was avery but I shouldn’t tell anyone, he has lied to me before.

I looked at all of their sympathetic faces, and they felt sorry for me, why do they feel sorry for me im fine I’m really. . Really fine.

-          Hey girls she will be fine just needs some rest.

They all smiled and nodded.

-          Bye boo we love you and get better ok

I nodded and they left promising to be back tomorrow.

He came closer and wiped the tear off of my face.

-          How do you feel

-          Numb

That’s a way to put it.

After all that I couldn’t help but feel like he was hiding something from me.

-          Are you hiding something.

-          No never.

He is lying to me.

-          Please don’t lie to me I have been through so much with the lies I –

My voice cut me off by cracking helping my tears betray me.

-          Leila look at me.

He pulled my chin up with his index finger, my eyes fell upon his and he looked at me, I couldn’t read him right now and I hate that, it scares me, that he can hide his emotions the way he does.