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Agad akong tumakbo paalis doon. Pumunta ako ng classroom at nagulat sila nang makita akong hinihingal. I ignored their stares and sat at my chair. I leaned my head back, closed my eyes and sighed heavily.
"You okay?" Tanong ni Wendy sa akin nang buksan ko ang aking mga mata. I nodded at her. I don't want to talk, I think I can't. It hurts, too much.
Ilang minuto rin akong tulala nang may pumasok sa classroom. Nakita ko si Kiro. He looked at my direction but I looked away. I played with my fingers to keep myself entertained. I kept on doing that until our teacher arrived.
Natapos ang klase namin na wala akong gana. Agad napansin ni Wendy ito and immediately asked me what happened when we got dismissed.
"It's nothing." I kept on answering her. But the perks of having a best friend, I can't keep my emotions hidden from her.
"At ako pa talaga ang niloloko mo?" She stopped me from walking. She gave me that fool-everyone-but-not-me-look.
"Okay, fine! Sasabihin ko mamaya! I'll probably call you." Sabi ko at umalis na.
"Seriously Julia?!" She shouted from afar. I ignored her and made a turn to the school gates.
Nang itinaas ko ang paningin ko sa daan, agad akong nagsisi. Because near the gates, stood Kiro and that girl. Kiro had the girl's bag in his hands. He looked very happy while looking at the girl's face. Ibang-iba sa mukha niya kapag kaharap niya ang ibang tao— kapag kaharap niya ako.
Agad akong tumakbo palabas bago pa nila ako makita but I heard what Kiro said at the time.
"You're better than anyone else."
Damn! Why did I have to hear that?! Kanina pa ako lutang. I didn't get to eat dinner well dahil sa kakaisip. Muntik ko na ring kalimutan ang mga projects ko dahil sa kakaisip.
"Julia, I brought your milk. Open up." Rinig ko si Mommy. Itinigil ko ang pagta-type at binuksan ang pinto.
"My." I greeted her when I opened the door. She handed me my milk.
"Don't sleep too late, princess. Good night!" Sabi niya at umalis. I continued typing my report in my laptop. A message popped up in my Instagram account.
Cassandra Felis requested to follow you.
Who is this? I opened her profile and saw that it was the girl from earlier. The girl with Kiro. Her profile has basically more photos of sceneries than people. But among the pictures, one picture caught my attention. A silhouette picture of her and a boy. Both are facing the sunset in a seashore.
Si Kiro ba ito? Maybe yes, maybe no. Their relationship confuses me. Magkaibigan lang ba sila? But friends don't act like that. Are they together? Siguro pero since when? Is it the reason kung bakit walang ini-entertain si Kiro sa mga taong may gusto sa kanya?
My head started to ache. Dapat tigilan ko na ito, dapat tigilan ko na ang pag-iisip tungkol dito.
I turned my laptop off and lay in bed. Pinipilit kong matulog pero hindi talaga. Bumangon ako at ginulo ang buhok ko sa frustration.
"I think I should know what they really have para mawala na ito sa isipan ko." I said to myself. Hopefully, I'll get to know, sooner.
