Thanks
I don't know what came into my mind when I asked to talk to him earlier pero I cannot back down now.
"Dito na ba tayo mag-uusap?" Kiro asked after drinking water.
"Yes." Sagot ko. Aakyat na sana siya sa bleachers nang pigilan ko siya. "Can you just stay there? Mas kumportable akong makipag-usap sa'yo ng ganito."
He stopped going up. He stayed at the court sides.
"Alam kong alam mo na may nararamdaman ako para sa'yo. This has been going on for years already. Akala ko na kapag ipagpapatuloy ko lang ito, someday, you'll get to notice me and probably have feelings for me as well but it never happened. It hurts so much especially when I found out that you already like someone. Actually, kayo na raw. It hurts to think that you never noticed the person who admired you for so long pero agad mong nagustuhan yung taong kakakilala mo pa lang. But I can never blame you, nagmahal ka lang rin, I know." Tumigil ako sandala at tiningnan siya. Nakakunot na ang noo niya because of some reason I don't know.
"Nakikipag-usap ako sa'yo ngayon because I want to clear everything out. I still have feelings for you until now at hindi ko alam kung kailan 'to mawawala. But from this day, I'll start to move on. I know that you don't care about this but gusto ko lang na sabihin to sa'yo, para sa sarili ko na rin. I want to thank you,actually, for showing me that sometimes, there are persons you can never have. Kahit gaano mo pa kamahal ang isang tao, kung ayaw niya talaga sa'yo, talagang hindi kayo pwede. So thanks, Kiro. Also, sorry for being such an immature person who does things that annoys you. I really hope we can still be friends after this."
He looked at me. We stared at each other for about a minute, then he smiled. Agad namang tumibok ng mabilis ang puso ko. Same effects, still. But someday, I know, I'll never react to him this way again.
"I... I actually don't know what to say, Julia. Matagal ko nang alam yung tungkol sa feelings mo but I never took them seriously. Sorry, I guess, for not being able to return the love you have been giving me. But, thank you, for admiring me for very long. And I guess I support you in moving on?" Sabi niya sa akin. Napatawa na lang ako. Who thought that I'll finally make a decision like this?
"Mauuna na ako. Magkikita pa kami ni Neo." Sabi ko at nagsimulang maglakad palabas ng gym. Pero bago pa ako tuluyang makalabas, I faced him again.
"Kiro?" I called him. He was still standing in the court sides. "Yeah?"
"Take care of her, okay? And love her well." I smiled. He smiled back and I left.
Nang nakalabas ako sa gym, nakahinga na ako ng maayos. Tears are forming in my eyes but I brushed them off. It hurts but I'm actually happy.
"Julia!" Nang marinig ko ang pangalan ko ay agad akong napatingin sa taong tumawag sa akin. I smiled at him.
I ran to him and hugged him tight, really tight.
"H-hey? May problema ba?" Tanong niya. Agad akong umiling.
"Thank you so much, Neo. Thank you." Sabi ko.
