Truth
Midnight na pero andito pa rin ako at nakatingin sa kisame ng kwarto ko. My eyes are swollen because of crying and my nose is runny. Until now, hindi ko mapasok sa isip ko ang pinag-usapan namin ni Neo kanina sa Fruistro Cafè.
"No. Hindi sila magkaibigan or magkababata. They're together, Julia." He said.
"But how? Since when?" Pinipilit kong hindi umiyak. It hurts me too much to think that after all these time that I made efforts for Kiro to notice me, he already noticed someone else.
"A few months ago, when Kiro went to the province to visit his grandparents. Cassandra was studying there at kilala siya ng pamilya nila Kiro. I think Kiro found her attractive or something and courted her, in secret."
I'm dumbfounded. I can't believe this.
"So when Cassandra moved her, sila na ni Kiro?" I asked, my eyes watery.
"No. Kiro was still courting her nang lumipat siya. A week ago, she said yes to Kiro, and now they're together." Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko. It hurts, so much.
"Why didn't you tell me this? Magkaibigan tayo Neo at alam mong gusto ko si Kiro pero hindi mo man lamang ito sinabi sa akin? You know that it will hurt me!" I cried. I tried my best not to but I can't stop myself.
"Sorry, Julia. Kiro told me not to tell anyone yet. This is the best thing I can do as a friend."
"But he was becoming close to me a few weeks ago. Why was he like that?"
"I don't know. Julia, please, hindi pa rin ba nagbabago ang nararamdaman mo para sa kanya? You have to move on. He's with Cassandra now. Now that he has someone else, is that enough for you to move on?" He asked me and held my hand.
"No." I answered.
"What?"
"Unless na marinig ko ito mula sa kanya, mula kay Kiro, I will not move on. What if you're joking? What if he told you that so that I'll stop bothering him? What if he just wants—"
"Stop those what-ifs! Kung ginawa niya ito para layuan mo siya then you should leave him alone! Stop those useless feelings you have Julia!" Sigaw ni Neo. I stood up.
"If you call my feelings useless then you're not my friend, Neo. Do you call these feelings that lasted for years, useless?! You don't know how it hurts because you never felt it, Neo! So stop calling my feelings useless!" I shouted back. Kinuha ko ang bag ko at umalis. Pero bago pa ako makaalis, I heard Neo said something.
"I'm sorry but your feelings aren't useless, Julia. And I know how it feels because I also have been loving someone who cannot love me back. Sorry if I hurt you. But please, learn to move on from him. It's for yourself."
I left without looking back at him. Sorry Neo, but these useless feelings just don't go away easily.
Now, I know the truth. Kiro and Cassandra are really together. How can a boy be like that? Paano niya nagagawa yun? He knows that I like him, no, that I love him but he never gave me a chance. And now, he just met a girl from the province and now he's in love? Dapat bang galing probinsiya muna ako bago niya ako mapansin?
That's the thing about people sometimes, they tend to ignore those who are near them because they're too used with their presence. They always look at the people who is new to them.
